right person,right time

"im sorry im sorry"

Alondra's  POV
"time of death 1347" i heard a voice. it was the time she died. the time the love of my life
died. "al? come on you can't watch this" i felt some arms go around me it was Arizona's. "no! no! please! bring her back!" i yelled. i screamed. "ally come you don't need to see this" i heard another voice it was Josephine's. i started to throw shit. hit shit. "please no!" i cried and fell on the floor. "i fucking hate you amelia shepherd" i yelled looking up with tears.

i was woken up by a pair of hands shaking me over and over. "Alondra! come on! she's out of surgery" I heard a voice it was arizona. i had immediately jumped up and rushed towards the room. "she's ok!" i said looking around for someone to give me an answer. "she will still need to recover from all the wounds and since the lack of eating for weeks her body just stopped telling her to ea-'' i stopped the ginger man right there "im a doctor! i know how the body works now tell me if she's going to live or not!" i yelled at him "yes" he said quietly

"ok can you all leave now" i demand "al? can you just listen to them" jo said i turned and gave each other them eye contact "5 minutes" i said "she will need to be monitored and kept here" they said "for how long exactly" i asked them i was starting to get impatient and mad. "until we know she is good and this won't happen again" Owen said "we also think she needs to see a therapist or someone who can help her" i heard a voice but didn't know exactly who it came from but they didn't deny it. "why" i asked them already annoyed "have you been paying attention? look at her she's not ok" link said "oh fuck all of you!" i yelled at them

"al lower your voice" Arizona said "no! you guys think my wife is fucking suicidal? i hate all of you!" i yelled at them slamming the door and walking into the room they placed Amelia in. i looked at her. maybe they're right? maybe i wasn't paying enough attention to my own wife? she was connected to all these wires. "ames? i know you probably can't hear me but i need you and i need you to wake up" i said but i got no response back "im sorry i wasn't there for you im sorry i was so stupid to even notice" i said now sitting next to her in a chair holding her hand "im sorry im sorry" i whispered and had tears falling down my face.

i felt very little movement. i felt her fingers grasp a little. "ames please keep fighting" i said i had tears falling already but then i felt another grasp but this time it was an actual one like she held on. "omg! omg! omg! omg!" i just kept repeating till i saw her eyes slowly but very surly open. "hey" she said very voice was very low and dry. "you want some water" i asked her she gave me a quiet nod. this is the first time in a while she has talked to me and i have been with her alone. "can you lay with me please?" she asked she was hesitant. it was like she was almost asking me to do it.

she scooted over and bit. i wrapped my arms around her body very carefully. she laid her head in my chest. she began to just cry and she cried and cried. "hey hey what's wrong my love" i asked pulling her even closer than she already was "everything please just don't leave me" she said looking into my eyes "look at me my love i would never ever leave you ever" i told her now i had tears falling "are you mad" she asked "when i thought you weren't going to make it then yes i was very mad i was mad at everyone. mad at myself. mad at you. i was mad at the world." i said "i should have talked to you instead of pushing you away" she said

"all i wanted to do was help you babe" i said "im sorry for pushing you away. for being a very shitty wife and mother. and- i- i- i missed every single minute of being that good mother and wife" she said she was stuttering like crazy "hey take it easy" i said smoothing her hair and kissing her cheek "you don't hate me? for being so very destructive" she asked "no. i could never. i love you too damn much. we will get through this together i want to help you" i said she was breathing. i honestly was scared to even think she wasn't. but she is.

i heard a knock at the door. it was blondie. "is it a bad time?" she asked i looked over towards amelia for her to decide. "no" she said "I'm going to go find you something to eat and go grab chris. i love you i will be back" i said kissing her temple before leaving.

Amelia's  POV
"you scared me to death!" Arizona said which made me smile a little "not funny! i was worried hell i think sloan was going to just go missing if you didn't make it" she said "thank you for saving me" i said winking at her because i couldn't exactly give her a hug at the moment. "thank you for being my best friend" she said smiling making me roll my eyes "we aren't friends" i said she rolled her eyes now

she sat down in the car which now i know she's about to go full mom mode on me and give me an absurd amount of questions. "seriously? though what if i hadn't came? what if sloan just left without even talking to you?" her questions were very intense "i didn't even mean for it to get out of hand like that" I said she was now in all listening ears "soon i stopped eating and stopped caring the way i use to" i said "chris? he misses you" she said "i know and now i don't know how to work from this and not be a already more shit head of a mom" i said she then held my hand "you're not a shit mom. you're actually a pretty freaking strong mom. and a damn strong woman" she said

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authors note ~
and so she lives.....

this chapter was cut short