Prey for the Devil's Bloodied Angel Wings

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^^Lily

Addy's POV

The hood was pulled over my head as I sat on the bleachers. Some students were playing soccer as I read my novel. I brought the Starbucks coffee to my mouth when I got to a particularly good part. I heard cawing, so I looked up to see Rowan. He clapped a few times in a direction. I turned and gasped at the person waving up at me.

"Lily?"

"Hey, Addy." She smiled and climbed up the steps. "How are you?" She sat next to me and wrapped me in a hug. "It's been so long." She grinned.

"What are you doing here?" I smiled.

"Oh, I'm here for Ken, but spotted Kiki. I figured you'd be here and luckily you are!"

"How'd you find me?"

"Asked around. Some kids looked at me weird." She gave me a confused look.

"That's to be expected after everything." I sighed.

"Oh, they're holding that over you." Lily bit her lip. "Sorry to hear that."

"No, I'm sorry for what I did. I'm hoping I didn't hurt you too bad?" I nervously asked.

"I wasn't in the cross fields." Lily playfully nudged my shoulder. "Cleanup and rebuilds didn't take as long as you think."

"I hurt Zeli and injured others."

"Zeli is doing alright. She's undergoing rehab and making incredible progress. She's currently benched until she receives Yugi's approval. I do think she's milking it because her resting period allows her to be around Cal more." Lily chuckled. "But, you should be happy that you have Kiki back!"

"I am, but not under the circumstances it took." I looked away. "I tried to kill acacia and Hana. Thankfully, my plot was foiled, but the trauma is still there for them. I scared them. The sad part is that you'd think me harming them was the most egregious thing, but it really wasn't. I manipulated, lied, tortured, killed, and more. I was a mess."

"Why'd you shut yourself off?" Lily played with her thumbs. "I think that's the question on many people's minds."

"It wasn't until a therapist until I was really able to be psychoanalyzed." I humorlessly chuckled. "Seems that through all my trauma, I learned to hold everything inside. I've conditioned myself not to ask for help or divulge my inner pain. I'd hold everything close to my chest and... and I imploded. I couldn't hold it in anymore and that's when everything went bad."

"We were here for you." She placed a friendly hand to my shoulder. "And you still have people here."

"How are you not scared of me?" I meekly whispered. "Everyone else is." I looked down when I felt the fear from passing students.

"I'm not scared because I know the real you."

"But what if that was the real me." I leaned forward. "What if that terrible moment in my life just allowed me to be me. I had no issue murdering all those people, Lily." I sniffled. "I've harmed so many people that I loved." I looked up to avoid crying.

"Addy-"

"I hurt my son, Lily." I wiped a lone tear. "I abused and eventually killed him." Lily gasped. "And I'd have allowed him to stay dead if Gad didn't beg me to revive him. I then brought Blake back as a soul reaper. And..." I looked away to gather my breath. "The amount of mental and physical abuse he went through. Blake is not the same beautiful, bright, and loving boy he once was. He's a killer and sadistic and psychotic."

"Addy." She rubbed my arm.

"And the worse part is that I can't find him. Like his psychiatric hospital got destroyed. Demons... my own demons attacked the place and he's now on the run. We don't even think he's in this realm anymore. So if he ran into another realm, he'd be treated as hostile since he's a demon now. I think my son is dead and that hurts my heart." My lip trembled. "I want him back. I want everything to go back to normal."