Never Say A Word

Chapter 10

An hour later I opened Calum's door and I peeked to see if he was downstairs. I couldn't see him. He must be down in the basement.
"Calum!" I yelled a little. "Calum!" I yelled a little louder. Great, he couldn't hear me. I held onto the hand rail as I sat down on the top of the stairs. I could see my phone on the couch. I couldn't tell what time it was.

What felt like hours later Calum came up from downstairs. He looked up at me and shook his head.
"I'm not even gonna ask if you need help because I can see that Turing into a disaster." He said coming up the stairs. He tried to pick me up bridal style but I hit his arm.
"No!"
"What's up with your attitude?" He asked sitting next to me.
"What attitude?"
"Really?" He looked at me. "You're gonna play that game?" He sighed. "Jen I don't get what's wrong."
"I never said anything was wrong."
"Well you sure are acting like it." It went silent for a second. "Well," he got up and started walking down the stairs, "if you want to be that way then you can just get down by yourself." He grabbed my phone and pulled over a chair sitting at the bottom of the stairs watching holding my phone in his hands. "You gonna come down?" He asked spinning in the spiny chair. I didn't say anything. I looked down at the stairs then at my leg. I slowly and carefully tried to slide down on my butt. But when I lost hold of the railing I started to fall. Calum quickly zipped up and caught me having his right hand on my waist and his other hand keeping him up above me. "I got you." He said. I looked up at him and he smiled. "I won't let you fall." He picked me up and carried me down the rest of the way. "Can we please do something that calms us down?" He asked handing me my phone.
"Like what?" I snapped.
"Come here." He said holding his arms out for a hug.
"No."
"Come here." He smiled coming closer to me. I backed up faster and faster and he caught up giving me a hug. "I'm sorry." He whispered. I then hugged him back tightly. He pushed me off gently and he'd his hands on my shoulders. "We good now?" I nodded. "Good." He smiled. "It's 1:30 what should we do?" He asked.
"I don't know." He thought for a minute then he picked me up carrying me upstairs. I looked at him confused of why we were up in his room.
"I want to talk to you." He smiled setting me down on the bed. He sat next to me.
"About what?" I asked a little nervous. He laughed a little.
"Just talk." He shrugged. We laid down on our backs staring at the ceiling. "How does it feel different?" He asked.
"It just...does." I said not knowing how to answer.
"Does it feel like we're...more than friends?" He asked looking at me.
"Yeah." I didn't mind it I just didn't like how weird it felt. We've been friends for as long as I can remember. But us being alone for a long time and him acting like this made me realize...I kind of liked him like that.
"Jennifer?" He asked pulling back to reality.
"Yeah?"
"I'm sorry." He said.
"It's fine." Is all I said. He got up and walked out the room. Confused I followed him and he went downstairs. I sat on the top stairs again and leaned to see what he was doing in the kitchen. Then I leaned too far forwards and started to fall. I caught myself so I didn't tumble down but I slid down hurting my leg. Calum ran up to me and like before caught me having his right hand on my waist and his left holding him up. I looked up at him. His dark eyes meeting my blue eyes. Then I got butterflies in my stomach when he came closer. His face inches from mine I closed my eyes like he did and I felt the gentle touch of his lips on mine. My first kiss. We separated but his face still inches from mine.
"I want to be more." He whispered. I looked up at him not knowing what to do or say. I carefully crawled up the stairs and went into his bedroom closing the door behind me. I laid on his bed and had my face in a pillow as I began to cry.

I was laying on Calum's bed staring blankly into space. I looked at his alarm clock, it was 7:30. Calum hasn't come in for 6 hours. I got up and looked at my reflection. I looked bad. My eyes were all red from crying and I couldn't breathe out of my nose it was all stuffed up. I quietly walked out and looked down into the living room. Calum was laying on the couch. I looked down at the stairs. I needed to get down to him. I wasn't going to even try going down on my butt that didn't work. I held tightly onto the railing with both hands and went down slowly and carefully. I successfully made it down and I went over to Calum. He didn't look at me he just kept staring at the ceiling like he didn't know I was standing there. I laid on my side next to him putting my head on his shoulder and stretching my arm over to his other shoulder. I stared up at the ceiling with him. He sniffed his nose all stuffed up like mine.
"I ruined our friendship." He said his voice high.
"No Calum you didn't." I said lifting my head looking at him. "Calum I promise you didn't."
"Yes I did." He didn't take his eyes off the ceiling. "I kissed you and said that I want to be more than friends." He sniffed. I laid my head next to his and like a cat I rubbed my forehead against his cheek.
"You can never ruin our friendship by doing that. Calum you've been there for me my whole life and was by my side no matter what. There's nothing that can destroy our friendship." I wanted to tell him that I liked him that way too but I didn't know how to tell with without actually saying it. I looked at him and propped myself up on my elbow. He looked back at me and I kissed him. When I looked at him he looked confused. I smiled.
"Wait." He said and I giggled. "You just kissed me."
"Yeah I know."
"Did you fall or something?"
"No." I shook my head laughing.
"You kissed my on purpose?"
"Yeah."
"Why?"
"Because after you acting like we were more than friends I realized that I kinda do like you like that." I told him putting my head down.
"But...what?" He asked very confused. "I thought you didn't like how I acted like that."
"I didn't like how weird it felt. But I don't know about dating. What if we break up? How are we supposed to be friends again?"
"I don't know." He sat up. "That's the one thing I'm very afraid of."
"I think the best thing to do is forget that we ever kissed or told each other this." I sighed. He thought for a minute.
"Ok." He whispered nodding.

Later we were up in his room sitting on his bed talking and laughing like nothing ever happened.
"So glad it's Friday." Calum sighed.
"Yeah." I agreed. "Free Friday." I smiled.
"What time is it?"
"It is..." I looked at my phone. "10 o'clock." The. There was a knock on the door. It was pouring rain out. We looked at each other and we got up going downstairs. The knocking got louder and faster when Calum put me down and answered the door. The one who was hugging himself sopping wet and cold was the one who I least expected. Luke.