Her's Now, and Forever

~ Chapter 23 ~

{ Kamilia's POV }

I was chilling in my apartment with Milk, right  now I'm in my bed and she's purring on my stomach. I pat her head and ruffled her long fur, I loved this cat so much, I don't know what I would do without her. I kept looking at her and admiring her, but then I looked at the time, it was about 11 pm. 

Fuck I forgot to do my daily journaling

Yeah, I do daily journaling, it helps me gather and clear my thoughts before bed. It's something that helps me understand my emotions throughout the day as well, I glanced around my room to find my notebook and I couldn't. I thought about it some more and then realized I left it on my desk, I didn't wanna get up because I had a fluffy purring pillow resting on me but I sighed, moved Milk and quickly got up to get my notebook. She glared at me with a look of betrayal on her face, I gave her a treat as an apology and got back in bed.

I took my pen out and started to write about the audition I went to today, but then my phone started ringing. I looked at it and it was Rose, so ofc I dropped everything to answer her . . .

"Princesssssss, I need your helppp!" She was slurring her words and I could hear that she was somewhere outside, is she drunk?

"Are you okay? What is it love?" 

"Mhmm I'm okay butttt I can't get into my houseeeee, can you like open it?" She hiccuped and I was worried, I'm pretty sure she's drunk and it's horrible to be that drunk this late at night.

"Okay, I'll be there in 10 minutes love." I got out of bed and quickly ran out my apartment to my car.

"Thank youuu bye bye!" 

"No no no, don't hang up love. Stay on the phone with me until I get there." I really didn't wanna get there like 10 minutes later and find out she was kidnapped or something, people are crazy at night AND she's a gorgeous woman.

"Okayyyy I love you princesss!" 

"I love you too baby!" 

It was a pretty quick drive, Rose wasn't talking to me much the whole drive but I didn't mind. She seemed really drunk, so when I get there I'll definitely get her some water and bread, some cuddles too. Anyways, I parked my car at a nearby curb and hung up on her. I quickly got out of the drivers seat and began walking towards her house. There, I saw she was wearing a really pretty dress with some heels, I guess she went clubbing or something. She was just sitting on one of the steps to her house, her head was so with her pinkish hair covering her face. I moved hair gently and spoke . . .

"I'm here now, let's get you inside." I took her hand and unlocked her door, she gave me a spare key to her house but I do wonder how she even lost her keys . . .

When I opened her door, I saw that she was stumbling so instead of just leading her, I let her lean on me and I carried a little of her weight for her. We walked to the couch slowly and she layed back against the pillows.

"You're likee, my knight in shining armor? You know that?" She giggled and slurred a little more.

"Thank you baby, give me a minute I'm gonna get you something." I went to her kitchen and got some bread and water, hopefully it'll make her feel a little more sober. I came back and she looked up at me with sad eyes as I handed her the bread and water.

"Why do you look so sad?" I sat down beside her on the couch and moved her hair out of her face gently.

"Becauseeee you left me!" 

"I'm sorry love, it was only for a minute. Anyways, can you tell me what happened this night? Why are you so drunk?" I was really curious, I mean . . . how did it end here?

"III went to a lesbian club with my friendss and we drank a lot, it was sooo fun!" She giggled and wrapped her arms around me.

"Wowwww I can feel your heart beating!" She pressed her hand on my chest and dropped her jaw.

"Okay . . . but why were you at your house alone? How did you lose your keys?" 

"Uhm . . . I dunno, I don't remember Kamil." 

Suddenly, she pushed me back on the couch and towered above me, kissing me all over my face and groping my boobs. I didn't mind her doing this of course, but she's very very drunk right now.

"Hey wait, drunk sex isn't a turn off but maybe not now?" I sat up and she whined.

"Nooo but I love you and and I have to!" The last part she said confused me, she has to?

"What do you mean you have to love?" 

{ Rose's POV }

~ Flashback : 3 hours ago ~

I got out of the car and looked at the big neon sign that read, "Sapphic Sluts", this was the first time I was going to a lesbian club/bar. I was really excited, I wish I could've taken Kamilia with me but she said she was busy today and just wanted some time alone. I didn't wanna go alone, so I took 3 of my friends with me! My bestfriend, Bianca, of course had to come with me, tonight is gonna be a good time.

Of course, I had a beautiful short pink dress and gorgeous heels to go with it. I wanted to match with all three of my friends, Liz, Jasmine, and Bianca but only Bianca chose to match with me. Probably because Bianca is just nice like that, she's always been sweet and caring, she'd be down for anything with me. We looked good together though, she wore a sparkly pink dress and just normal shoes, but she had a gorgeous purse and pink ribbons in her hair to go with it. I thought the ribbons looked perfect in her wavy brown hair. 

Liz is tall, her hair is blonde but she has an undercut. She's the meanest or coldest of the three, but she's cool when you get to know her. She wore a black corset and a black jean skirt, she also had black stockings and platforms. She looked like a badass compared to me and Bianca.

Finally, there was Jasmine, she was the more down to Earth, logical, calm and collected type. She was wearing a green dress that gave her an ethereal vibe. I loved it, she also had lots of jewelry and bracelets on, she was the more spiritual one of the group. She was also wearing white gloves, she was definitely going for a princess Tiana vibe and I loved it.

We all walked to the entrance of the club, there was a big bouncer at the door though. We all showed our IDS and got into the club. It was a pretty big club, while walking in I saw the huge dance floor and my ears were blasted with music. There was a bar when you first walked in, and to the left a hallway for private rooms.

"Let's get drinks first!" Jasmine spoke and we all laughed, she always loves to get drunk.

"Fine, but if you black out I'm not helping you again." Liz said sarcastically as we walked over to the bar.

"I agree, last time you puked all in my car!" I said, laughing a little.

"Love me a good drink, I'm finna be twerking on the dance floor after this." Bianca spoke and it was so outta pocket, it caught everyone off guard and we bursted out laughing. 

We sat down at the stools at the bar, after a minute the bartender came to us and asked for our orders. Liz ordered a margarita, Jasmine got a shot of vodka, while me and Bianca got a sex on the beach. I loved that drink so much, not my favorite but it's up there. Liz and Bianca only got one drink, while me and Jasmine got multiple drinks. I was already feeling tipsy by the time I was done.

"Biancaaa, we should dance on the dance floor!" I grabbed her hand and led her to the dance floor. 

"Wai-" 

The dance floor was pretty crowded, every few seconds you'd bump into someone or something, but I didn't mind. I'm an introvert, but I have a huge social battery. I started dancing and twerking on the floor, I was going full out when I felt someone grinding all on me. I looked back and saw a woman with pale skin and dark brown hair, her voice was very deep as she spoke to me.

"Hi gorgeous, what are you doing here?" Her voice was raspy, and she seemed cool but I could definitely tell she was flirting.

"Nooo, sorry I have a girlfriend! She's super cool and lovely and adorable and she's my worlddd!" I slurred a little as I pushed her away, she took the hint and left.

Bianca and I were getting into it when we heard Liz arguing with someone from the bar. We stopped dancing and walked back there, we saw this white woman with short black hair and she was being obnoxious . . .

"Ugh why do I get hit on here, I'm not gay! You lesbians go away!" She screamed at the bartender.

I sat next to Jasmine and whispered into her ear, "What happened?"

"The bartender was just being nice to that woman and she took it as flirting, she's straight and homophobic at a gay club." I scoffed at her, that sounds embarassing.

"This is a lesbian club, and I'm sure that bartender's standards aren't that low that she'd flirt with YOU." Liz argued and the woman gasped.

"Excuse me! I'll have you know I look very good!" The woman screamed.

"Ugh stop screaming and frowning, if you keep doing that your face is gonna end up like your tits, old and saggy."

The woman was flabbergasted after that comment and she stormed out of the club, she had everyone's attention on her during the whole argument and there were so many laughs. I'm sure she felt very humiliated at that moment.

After having all of those drinks, I realized I had to use the bathroom so I told Bianca and made my way there. I went into one of the stalls, did my business, and then left to wash my hands. It was kinda hard because I kept stumbling, I felt a little drunk from all the drinks I had. In the mirror above the sink, I saw someone walk in . . . and I recognized them.

"Fancy seeing you here . . ." My eyes widened as I heard her voice, it was really her. She put her arms around her waist and touched on me from behind.

"Stop, don't do thatt!" I pushed her away with my wet hands and she smirked.

"But why Rose? You don't love me anymore? I know you do." She chuckled and tried to kiss me, I covered my face.

"Nevaeh we're over, I don't want anything to do with you." I really didn't . . . she was really toxic for me so I broke it off with her before she hurt me way more. I didn't care to dry my hands, I was on my way to the door when she pinned me to the door.

"Such a shame, if you're not gonna give in willingly, I'll just get what I want myself." My eyes widened and I was terrified at what that meant. I began screaming but she just covered my mouth.

"Noone's gonna hear you, the music's pretty loud." She whispered in my ear and I was so anxious.

She began groping my breasts and licking all over my chest, I was so uncomfortable, I felt so weak. She grabbed a handful of my hair and tugged on it very hard, then she began to kiss me all over my face. I tried to fight her off and push her away, but I couldn't. I couldn't do anything as she had her way with my body, I just felt like crying in that moment. I didn't wanna look up at her and see those sinister green eyes so I closed my eyes. I hoped that Nevaeh wouldn't do anything more but then she put her hand up the bottom of my dress.

"Nooo pleaseee, I don't want this, please don't do this." I grabbed her hand and pleaded with her, her touching all over my chest and ass was worse enough but anything more and I'd break. I kept thinking about Kamilia, would she hate me? Is this my fault? Is this cheating? Will she think I'm weak?

"You little bitch, don't grab me like that." She spat on me and I heard the door open . . .

"Rose! Rose are y- WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO HER?" Briana walked in and pulled Nevaeh off of me, she hit her with something on her head and Nevaeh knocked unconscious on the ground. 

Briana rushed back over to me and kneeled down, "Are you okay? I'm so sorry I couldn't prevent it . . . I'm sorry I didn't come with you." She hugged me really tight.

"It's okay, it's my fault, I was too weak." It was true, it was all my fault. I shouldn't have drank so much, I shouldn't have been so weak. I could've fought back more, why wasn't I stronger? I began crying in Briana's arms.

"No, it's not your fault. You tried to fight, but you're drunk Rose, you could only do so much." Briana comforted me while she pulled out her phone to call Liz about what happened, moments later both Liz and Jasmine came to the bathroom. I told all three of them about what happened and they were so sympathetic with me, they were all mad at Nevaeh.

Liz looked over at Nevaeh on the floor and sighed, "I guess I'm beating some ass tonight." 

"Hey while you do that, I'm gonna get some really colorful drinks to splash on her white dress." Jasmine said with a grin, I was glad they were supportive of me.

"Can we cut her hair too? Would that be too far? I think she deserves to look a hot mess after assaulting my best friend." 

~ Present ~

I was sobbing in Kamilia's arms, I felt so bad that she had to deal with me. I'm supposed to be taking care of her, not the other way around. I feel so selfish, is she bothered by me?

"It's okay, I'm here, calm down love." She held me close and kissed my cheek, but I felt dirty, I feel like I don't deserve her kisses after what Nevaeh did.

"I'm sorry." That was all I could muster out.

"Sorry for what? You haven't dont anything wrong love." She was confused, I didn't know if I should tell her or not but I did . . .

"I'm sorry I was so weak, I'm sorry I couldn't fight off Nevaeh." I started crying more, I failed her as a girlfriend.

"Baby you're not weak, and what do you mean you couldn't fight her off? Who's Nevaeh?"

"The club, she grabbed me and did things to me, I didn't like it. She's my ex, and and I tried to push her away but . . . " I couldn't say anything else, I didn't wanna relive those memories, I wanted them to vanish.

"Look at me Rose." I looked up and I was scared, was she gonna yell at me? I deserve it anyways, I cheated on her.

"I'm so sorry you were assaulted love, you're not weak. I promise you're not weak, you're so strong for getting through that and you tried your best to fight her. It's not your fault, you're drunk and I don't know what you're thinking but I'm not mad at you and no, it's not cheating. I'm mad at Nevaeh for even doing that to you." She kissed my cheek and held me close, Kamilia could always read me, and she always made me feel better.

For a long time, we just cuddled. I didn't wanna talk about what happened and she could sense that. We just cuddled on the couch and binge watched shows. She kept telling me that my feelings were valid, she was here for me, and that I'm still an amazing girlfriend. I was so happy to have her, she made this whole situation better but I was still overthinking in my head. Do I go to the police? Will they believe me? Is it too late? Am I overreacting? My thoughts were racing and my eyes just began to flutter between being open and closed. I was yawning a lot and I felt very tired, so drained from the night. Eventually, I fell asleep cuddled up in Kamilia's arms.

{ This was a very hard chapter to write, I felt so bad bruh }