Her's Now, and Forever

~ Chapter 24 ~

{ Rose's POV }

It's been almost a week since that happened, I still feel horrible thinking about it and I didn't tell anyone else about what happened, not even my family. I wanted to hide my pain, it didn't work too well though. Kamilia's been worried about me ever since that night, she even made me get a therapist. 

I've been going to sessions everyday, but it's gotten to the point where my therapist said I could start going weekly. Through therapy, I've definitely improved and gotten better at processing that night. The first few sessons had me sobbing and I was a complete mess, but it's definitely helped. 

I feel bad for Kamilia though, she's been so supportive and has been here for me the whole time, even after I told her I wasn't sure if I'd be comfortable with having sex for a while. I just don't think its fair, I haven't done anything for her. I've just been in my feelings and a little depressed the past few days, so I haven't been taking care of her. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate everything she's done for me but I just feel like she deserves a better girlfriend.

I was so deep in my thoughts, I hadn't even gotten through the first few pages of the book I was holding. I looked down at the book and it was a mystery novel, I loved mystery and fantasy books. This one particular was about a murder that happened between monsters and nobody had a clue who did it. It looked cool, but I just haven't been into my hobbies lately.

I heard a door open and then I saw Kamilia stumbling down the stairs holding Sprinkles. She was wearing a white hoodie with a heart in the middle, inside the heart was MyMelody. To go with that, she had a pink pleated plaid skirt and adorable thigh high socks on. I kinda forgot she was little at the moment, but I'm glad she was. I love taking care of her, she always lights up my day and makes me feel important. Anyways, she finally got to the last step and toddled over to the couch. She plopped down and sat next to me . . .

"m knos mama been sads so i madz dis!" She handed me a white envelope, it was decorated with confetti and on there was scribbled, "To Mommy!" 

I gave her a smile and opened the envelope, and in inside there was a letter. It was decorated with hand-drawn flowers and she wrote in pink ink.

"Dear Mommy . . .

I know you've been feeling really down lately and and I wanted it to make it better so here's a letter! You're super strong and I'm really proud of you for overcoming this, you're an inspiration to me. I love you so much, so so much. You're the best Mommy in the world and I appreciate everything you do for me, you always take care of me so well whenever I need it, so of course I'll do the same for you."

I shed tears reading the message, it was something I really needed to hear. I was gonna hug her but I noticed she was gone, I looked around the living room and she wasn't there either. Then, I heard the front door open and she waddled back in holding a huge basket in her hands.

She sat it on the couch next to me and smiled, "dis for mama!"

The basket was a normal basket, the type you'd use for easter, but instead it was filled with my favorite snacks, fruits, sweet smelling candles, and some cute items. There was a flower shaped pillow, followed by a fluffy yellow blanket, she also got me some cute cooking hardware because she knows how much I love my kitchen. I could tell she put effort into the whole basket, it was decorated beautifully with adorable tissue paper, paper flowers, some confetti at the bottom, and even a bow on top. I was digging through the basket and I cried more tears of joy, I literally have the sweetest girlfriend.

"Oh my god, you did this all for me? Thank you so much baby, you're so sweet." I pulled her into my lap and I kissed all over her face, she smiled and giggled a lot.

"ou welcomz!!" 

She sat up and started to play with my hair, I was kinda caught off guard because she's never touched my hair before. She gasped and giggled . . .

"mama haiw so thinsss buh it pwetty!" I laughed, I know she didn't mean anything bad by calling my hair thin since her hair is a lot thicker and curlier than mine, but she's just so adorable. Speaking of my hair, I'm actually thinking of dying it back to brown or maybe white, the strawberry pink I have in right now looks amazing but I get bored.

"Aww thank you angel, your hair is very pretty too!" I really thought her hair was super pretty. I've always admired braids and I thought black culture was very interesting, I'm thankful she's willing to educate me more on it and show me a lot of things.

{ Time Skip ~ 5 days later }

It was the middle of the day, and I was getting ready to go to the store with my baby because I needed to get some more groceries before making dinner. We were in her nursery and she was just telling me random things as I got her dressed. I picked out a light blue pullover with a daisy in the middle, a normal white pleated skirt, and some white sneakers. I decided not to put her in a pullup or anything because we were going in public.

"mama dids ou kno staws wellow?!" She giggled and smiled as I took off her clothes.

"Mhm I did, and you're very smart for knowing that hun. Arms up angel!" I spoke with her and she put her arms up so I could put her shirt on.

"we shud go stargazin togetha!!!" She gasped and nodded lots, and honestly it didn't sound like a bad idea. We could find the perfect spot and even have a night picnic.

"Can you step into this? Good girl! And of course we can go stargazing, I think it would have to be farther from the city though, so you can see the pretty stars without all the light pollution with Mommy." I zipped her skirt up and began to tie her shoes.

"Yah! M didns fink bou dah Mommy smartz!" 

Once I was done, I let my baby pick out the stuffie she wanted to bring her new calico cat stuffie, Naomi or as she nicknamed her, Ni Ni. She grabbed her stuffie and held my hand the whole walk to the car, she's been really well behaved lately. We got to the car I put her in the passenger seat, buckling her in and then I got into the drivers seat and drove off to the store. After a 10 minute drive, we got to Target and I got her out the car, grabbing a cart on my way in.

"Stay close to Mommy baby." I made sure to whisper it in her ear because we were out in public.

"Tay wos!"

We went around a couple aisles, first went to the meat section to get everything I needed for the next month. I decided that I'll just freeze the meat so I don't have to keep coming here, then we went to the condiments and pasta aisle. My little helper grabbed a lot of things and put them into the cart, I pat her head and called her a good girl. 

It was a lot more shopping, we went to almost every aisle because I waited last minute to restock, I was still kinda demotivated and a little sad so it was hard for me to get up and do things. I regret waiting last minute, but what's done is done. For the next part of the trip, my princess didn't feel like being so helpful so she just followed me. While walking around, I noticed the store was mostly empty, I didn't see but a few people in there.

I was at the dairy section and it was a little too quiet, I'd hear small giggles and skips from her following me and watching stuff on her phone, but it was completely silent. I looked behind and saw that my baby was gone. 

{ Kamilia's POV }