Meant to Be (But Kinda Complicated)

The Inner Monologues of Joe Goldberg

A/N: This is a bonus chapter for you my lovelies. When I wrote the story, I wanted the readers as well as the characters be in the dark of what was happening with Joe, so I wrote his inner monologues because let's be honest, sometimes he's a comedian. These are meant to go along with the chapters, enjoy.

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Chapter 2 - Still on the Break

"And who are you? No... No, no. I shouldn't do that again. Last time I ended up with a green goblin mask for a face. I barely escaped custody and moved a few towns over for a fresh start. This is it— a fresh start. But I'm just curious, that's all. Curiosity is a normal thing. Why are you out so late by yourself on the beach of all places? Aren't you scared? You look perfect in the moonlight. Your hair looks like silk that's just begging to be touched. You remind me of HER. Wait, that can't be. It's YOU again. You survived the fall, but how? It's like fate brought me to you. Third time's the charm, right?"

Chapter 3 - Last Day

"You are out late again. I did end up following you to your apartment. Some might say it's creepy, but it's for your safety... so I can protect you. Who are you on the phone with that's making you laugh like that? I killed Blues Clues, watched him bleed out on that bridge, so it can't be him. I must find out because it should be me."

"Ah, it looks like you got my note. You should look happy but you seem panicked. No. That can't be, you must be thrilled because after all— you are the love of my life. We are MEANT TO BE. Can you stop looking at your phone? Why are you always on the phone? You have become just like that soulless ginger friend of yours, who failed the whole plan miserably, well she got what she deserved— drowned in that cold river, icy... just like her heart."

"You're leaving already? But I just found you. Probably heading back to your useless gang that doesn't appreciate you, doesn't love you. I've seen how they treat you and you deserve better."

Chapter 4 - Distance

"Placing a tracker on your car was easier than I thought. One would think that the biggest and scariest gang in the city would have better protection, but they just leave the gate wide open, and it was easy enough to steal a Dodo truck and a uniform from a civilian. Huh, I guess no one pays attention to the delivery workers. That's good to know."

"All you do is work and practice racing. It's dangerous to do it by yourself but you seem happy. Actually happy. I guess you're not all by yourself, I'm here. I'll always be here."

"This is so reckless of you. You are drunk and dancing in a club. This is totally not my scene, I'd rather read a book in a quiet place, but you seem to enjoy it. Who is the pink haired girl? She can't take her eyes off of you. Is she a threat? Do you have another stalker? Oh. Oh. You like girls too? Shit, shit. You spotted me. I hope that I can outrun you in your drunken state. I hate running."

"Just like clockwork, you are up and on your way to the stupid Italian restaurant that apparently also serves breakfast. You look great though and you should know that."

"It's so easy to know where you are. I don't even have to follow you, this tracker sends me updates every minute. Technology. Why didn't I think of before? Now, I can be closer to you."

"Who the actual fuck was that? He ascended from the hills like some sort of fucking guardian angel, swooping you away in his arms like that's his job. Lazy eyed six-two chunk of pure muscle is not like White Knight Ramee or Whimpy Blues Clues. Ah, an actual challenger. But don't worry, Little Birdy, you will be mine again soon."

Chapter 5 - Escape

"Hey, can I get a ride to the rental lot?" A sweet voice asked him as someone hopped into his taxi.

Are you blind? Obviously not. Can't you see that the light is off. Joe turned around as he was about to deny the woman when a wide smile spread across his face. Well, hello there.

"Of course," he answered as he drove forward.

"I'm Lana," she extended her hand out as her pink hair bounced in the wind.

"Lana. Such a great name. I'm Mark."

Chapter 6, 7 and 8 - Reunion, The Talk, and Party

"The search for your savior didn't take long. His photos are everywhere, mostly they were wanted signs. I guess I'm not the only one who wants him gone. Randy Bullet— impressive, but I don't know what you see in him. The fancy cars, the big guns, the over confidence just means that he's compensating for something— it would be a shame for such a tall man to have a small penis. Well, he doesn't need one anyway if he's dead. I need to get him away from Little Seoul. Alone. Unguarded. Sure, it will be hard and I don't know how I'll do it yet, but he has to be out of the picture. I see how he looks at you, how he holds you. He doesn't deserve you and he should know that."

"Fuck. None of them are dead, how is that even possible, and the ginger vampire lives and gets her happily ever after. No, I don't think so— she didn't finish the plan. As soon as I have you back, I'm driving a wooden stake through her heart. It would be so easy to sneak in right now, so many people to blend in with and such strong drinks but I have to stay ahead of the plan. I have to be smart about this."

Chapter 9 and 10 - Breakfast and Progress

"I'm William Gunner with LSPD. License and registration," the officer asked, standing next to the rolled down window of a white Futo.

"I'd lie if I said that I ran into him on purpose, the opportunity just simply fell into my lap to meet another one of your— men. You have slept with this guy? A cop? Well this could be problematic but he's clearly an idiot. He doesn't love you. You are just another notch in his belt and for whatever reason, you are okay with it. He dresses like an unattended toddler and has a thick caterpillar on his upper lip that begs to be ripped off."

"I said, license and registration," Gunner repeated himself.

"Of course officer, Spencer Reece. Nice to meet you."

Chapter 11 - Racing

"Oh Little Bird, you think you're free. You think you got away. It's time to remind you that they can't keep you safe. You are all alone."

"That didn't quite go as planned. You were supposed to be back home with me by now, but Guardian Angel has whisked you away again. Unfortunate. I began to like him. He has quite the resume. Terrorism. Slaughter. Trafficking. Hm, maybe it's time to let the world know about his accomplishments."

Chapter 13 and 14 - Emotions and Green Taxi

"Oh, Tristan. Didn't your mother teach you that you should never touch what is not yours? I didn't mean to kill you, I almost feel bad, but you just had to go and snoop around. Tsk. What a pity."

Chapter 15 and 16 - The Plan and Trust Fate and Time

"Hey Lana, it's Mark. I was wondering if you could help me with something? That sounds perfect. You know what? How about I'll come to you?"

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A/N - I hope you liked this little bonus chapter, it was mostly to practice writing because it's been awhile but it ended up being a fun little project for myself. The epilogue chapter will come out tomorrow. - love, Q