"i still remember the look on your face/ lit through the darkness at 1:58" ~last kiss, taylor swift
im not a liar
so when i say
i dont miss u
and i dont care
and i dont recall
anything
it's all insignificant
i don't reminisce
i don't replay
nights and days and visage and daze
aloneness and togetherness all wrapped up in a package
of idealisation and moments and fleeting futile potentials
and i dont have regrets
and i dont feel pain
i dont ache i dont crave
and u dont burn my corneas when i can dare to close my eyes
u dont exist
and i dont dream
of darkness and 1:58
flashing like warning signs in ur molten gaze
i couldnt bear to watch
and i can stay away
and i never lapse in judgment
im never weak, never vulnerable, never
contemplating this tightrope, musing over fire
im not scared of the flames
that await at the bottom
im not erecting impenetrable defenses
and planting dragons all around
im not wishing u out of existence
im not wishing u by my side
no grief no drowning
my sorrows in air
dont await an arrival
dont try to talk to u through telepathic waves
i never waver
never wish upon triplet numbers
im not haunted by voices
no promises in my head
no im not fucking stupid
im just not a liar
im not lying
