im writing bc i feel like i need too. usually i never really write 2 times a week. i dont really know whats wrong with me. i cant sleep and when i try to i dont. i stayed up until 12 building. its getting to a bad habit. tmr i wont play until i finish all my work i need too. my bf posted on snapchat and it looks like he has a friend hes hanging out with. must be nice getting his attention. all ive wanted was his attention but ig not and thats fine. hes still in this relationship. tbh it just feels as if we are two players who talk rarely but still stick with each other. i havent seen him in 2 months. 2 months bro. it hurts to not see him. actually thats a lie. i dont even care if i dont see him. i only care about the attention bro. i only ask for little things and now its just nothing. i havent texted him today. ive been busy building on sims. ive rarely texted anyone today. im just thinking if i should just go ghost, but if i do. who would care if i did? no one really shows any interest in me. im just a girl thats there and after we go back home its as if i was forgotten. i dont like being alone either. if i dont have any friends then who am i going to be silly with and go on a lot of drives and vacations. i want to make weird videos and photos but, every one of my friends are busy or im busy. i honestly hate it. i dont want to keep distancing myself from my friends bc of plans but i always have to bc family is important and i would choose to hang out with them than anything else. even if we dont do anything its still fun to be with them. i might head to bed right now i just needed to talk this out of my system. ill be back when i feel like i need to express myself without bothering my friends. remember to have hope. youll be okay.
September 22, 2022
Thursday
College Student(18)
2:18am
him🫶🏼
October 1, 2022 - Me and Ransom Broke up.
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