Dangerous...(a one direction fanfic)

* I can't live like this *

*Alexa's P.O.V*

I must've cried myself to sleep lastnight, only two weeks until my Mom comes home, then I won't have to see Harry's or Louis' faces ever again.

''I'm going out'' I called before running out the door, I have'nt said a word to anyone all morning, I just stayed in my room.There's no point saying anything anyway, it's not like they care.I decided to go to Josh's grave. I slowly looked at all the names on the graves, until I finally found my 17 year old angel...

''Hey Josh, just thought I'd drop bye to say hello, I've really missed you...You know things havn't been easy since you've been gone. Jess and Niall are together, they're so cute. I wish you were here so that we could spend time together like we used to back in the happy times. Me and Jess were telling the boys about my 14th birthday when we went Ice Skating and you got us kicked out. I'm sorry I havn't come to see you in a while, it's just a lot has been happening lately but I'm here now, I wish I could just be with you for one more day so that I could say goodbye properly. I guess I never thought that I'd loose you, now I just wish it was me. I have nothing to live for but you, you had everything, my life is a complete mess. I love someone who I hate, I just need someone to show me that not everyone is going to walk away, that not everyone is going to give up on you. I just need someone to show me that someone will fight for me, that someone will give a fuck... Anyway I better get going Jess will be wondering where I've gotten to... Love you Joshy... forever and always...'' And with that I stood up and walked away, not looking back not even once. I'm sick of looking back.

I approached Jess' house and knocked on the massive wooden door. A few seconds later the door flew open to reveal a smiling Jess.

''Hey Lex, you took forever'' She smiled before letting me in.

''Yeah, I went to see Josh'' I said. Me and Jess had a chat, it only seemed like we had been talking for ten minutes but when I looked at the clock it read 9 pm and it was dark outside.

''I better get going'' I told Jess.

''Okay, I'll set you to the door''. We stood up and walked to the door, I hugged Jess then left. I hate walking in silence alone, so I placed my headphones in to my ears and turned a song on...

''I'm running out of patients, 'cos I can't believe what the hell

I'm hearing, And speaking of hell

It don't compare to this heat, That I am feeling

I love you too much, It shows, All my emotions go

Out of control oh whoa whoa, Good for you bad for me

When I can hardly see, From the tears that flow oh whoa

Can't forget to breathe slow, Count from one to ten

With my eyes closed, 'cos ladies take it in

And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure, Before I lose it get comp- oh oh oh 'sure

I am gunna breathe slow, Count from one to ten, With my eyes closed

'cos ladies take it in, And get comp- oh oh oh 'sure, Ladies never lose comp- oh oh oh 'sure

Not gunna lie, Or even try, You've got my wheel spinning

And I ain't the one to show, The gun, 'cos that means you will be, Winning oh yeah