Dangerous...(a one direction fanfic)

* No one loves a Suicidal Girl *

* Lexi's P.O.V *

It's been a week since Harry and the boys apologized, I forgave them but I'm not stupid enough to trust them. I still feel scared and awkward around them.

Me and Harry were sat in my back garden looking up at the moon and stars, ''The Moon reminds me of people'' I said to Harry my eyes still fixed on the sky. ''Why?'' He asked.

''Because the Moon has a dark side that's never shown unless you're close enough and people have a dark side that they never show unless you're close enough'' I smiled at my response. I could feel Harry's eyes on me, I turned my head in his direction to see him resting on his elbows looking at me, a small smile played on his plump lips. ''What?'' I blushed, ''Nothing'' he shrugged before laying back down.

I felt Harry move closer to me causing me to tense, his hand rubbed my thigh. I quickly stood up and started to walk in to the house, I don't mind sitting with him and talking to him but ever since that night I can't bring myself to let anyone touch me except Jess and Zayn. But we hardly see Zayn he's always to busy fucking Perrie. ''Wait Lexi, stop'' Harry called behind me as he followed me in to the house. Niall and Liam were sat in the kitchen, Louis was out with Eleanor and Zayn was obviously at Perrie's. 

''Lexi!'' Harry roared, my head flew in his direction. ''What's your problem?'' He hissed in my face. Is he serious? ''What's my problem? more like what's your problem?'' I growled back, he obviously wasn't expecting me to reply. He looked at me with a shocked expression.

''You're the one who beat the shit out of me, now you're acting like none of that happened, well you know what Harry it did and I've got the bruises and cuts to prove it. I'm not going to just forget like that, I still hate you, all of you!'' I screamed at the top of my lungs. ''I hate YOU! and I will NEVER forgive you! I hat-'' I was cut off as a fist collided with my jaw.

''Harry! what the fuck?!'' Liam screamed running over to me. ''Get away!'' I snapped, my tear filled eyes fixed on Harry the whole time. I stood up from the tiled floor and walked up to my room. I hate Harry Styles so much! I laid on my bed, now I can cry. I don't cry in front of the boys because I don't want to show them that they hurt me, mainly Harry. I cried in to my pillow.

I heard my bedroom door open, my head shot up, Harry stood there a grin plastered on his face. He sat on my bed and reached for my hand, I quickly pulled it away and shuffled away from him. ''Where's Zayn?'' Harry sneered, ''Perrie's'' I whispered so quiet I'm surprised he even heard me. ''Aw, your little Zaynie isn't here when you need him, instead he's fucking Perrie'' He smirked. I instantly felt sick, I knew what he was going to do. He was going to beat me up again just like last time Zayn wasn't there.

''P-p-please Harry don't do this'' I begged as tears slipped down my cheeks, the grin on his face grew even wider. Why am I begging? that's what he wants, he wants me to beg. He lifted his fist and I clasped my eyes shut tightly bracing myself for the punch. But nothing, I opened my eyes and I saw his fist coming towards me. I had no time to react as his huge fist hit my nose. An explosion of pain erupted in my nose, I felt a hot liquid trickle down my face. I looked down and saw that I had red blood all over my shirt. 

I jumped up and ran for my bathroom, but a large hand gripped my wrist. It was Harry. He pushed me against the wall, one hand on my hips and the other still holding my wrist. He looked at me and sighed. ''Why do you make me do this to you?''. I was shocked, it's not my fault he hits me, he controls his actions not me!... He leaned forward and kissed my forehead before pulling back and looking me in the eye. ''I love you'' were the last words that left his lips before he left my room...

He loves me? no he's lying, he's just trying to mess with my head. Ugh I hate him! I put my hand up to my face and felt the liquid spill through my fingers. I quickly scurried in to my bathroom so that I didn't get any blood on my floor. I had a bath and put my pajamas on. I turned my television on and sat on the end of my bed watching 'Family Guy'. I can't believe he hit me again, I can't believe he hit me in the first place but he did...I hate living like this...

* Harry's P.O.V*

I looked at the clock that hung on the wall, it read one in the morning. No wonder I'm so tired. I stumbled up the stairs, Lexi light was still on so I guessed she was still awake. Good, now is my chance to say 'sorry for everything'. I pushed open her bedroom door and walked inside. ''Lexi?'' I said, no reply. I looked over to her bed, she was laid on it with her eyes shut. She was asleep, I sighed. ''Looks like I'll have to wait until tommorow'' I mumbled to myself as I turned of her light and walked out of the room. I took my clothes of before climbing in to my own bed...

 Next morning...

When I woke up this morning Lexi, was no where to be seen. Liam said he saw her leave early hours. 

Knock! Knock!

Liam went to the door, ''Hey!'' Liam chimed a few seconds later. ''Don't 'Hey' me, is Harry in?'' A voice said. It was Jess, What does she want? ''Um, yeah, why?'' I heard Liam say, ''Shut up and let me in'' Jess snapped, Jeez she's feisty. A few seconds late Jess stormed in to the living room. 

''You're such a dick!'' She snapped at me. I was taken back, ''Why?'' I finally said.

''You hit her again! Now she's ran away and I have no idea where she is, she could be lying in a gutter for all I know!'' Jess screamed. I couldn't find any words, she's ran away? It's my fault! ''How do you know she's ran away?'' I choked. Jess started rummaging through her bag and pulled out her phone before throwing it to me, it landed in my lap and I picked it up. There was a message on the screen.

'Hey Jess, I'm sorry but I can't live like this anymore. Everyone hate me, I feel alone like no one understands me anymore. All Harry and the boys do is hurt me, but there's no escaping them. Me and Harry used to be happy but  Some where along the lines everything fell apart. In a blur of self hatred and sadness, I lost who I was. And the only way I can find myself is by getting away from here. Away from it all. I've tried to be happy, I really have but that's hard when all I do is hurt... And it's hard to stay strong when you look around you and the world is crumbling and you can''t do anything about it. All I ever wanted is to be happy, but I guess that was to much to ask. My lfe is just a big a game and I'm tired of it, I don't want to play anymore... Life's a battle, you either die trying or win but what if I just give it up? what if I don't want win? what if I just want it to all end? You know I'm sick of living a life, where no one cares if I live or die. I wake up in the morning afraid that I'm going to live.I just want to run away but how can I run away from myself? I guess it's impossible, unless I end it myself...I love you but No one loves a suicidal girl...' 

I read the letter out loud, I read the last part over and over in my head.

'No one loves a suicidal girl...'   

I quickly wiped my tears away before looking up at everyone, they were crying too. ''What are we going to do?'' I sniffled, ''We need to find her before she does anything stupid'' Jess croaked. I nodded and we all left the house. We need to find her before she does anything stupid.

''Jess and Niall Check the grave yard, she might of went to see Josh'' I told Jess and Niall. They nodded and left.

''Liam, you and Louis check the streets, anywhere you think she could've gone'' I told the two boys, they nodded before leaving in Louis' car.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and called Zayn. I told him about the situation and he said he'd check all the places he could think of. What if it's too late? What if we don't find her in time? No Harry stop thinking like this you will find her! But Will I?...

(A/N- will they find her? if so who do you think will?... I must admit this chapter was sad.  Please let me know what you think, Vote, Comment and Follow. Love you :)) x)