Enemies, Mostly

Chapter 1

Do you think it's possible to hate someone but still love them at the same time?

I'd like to say it's impossible. That you can't hold love and hate for the same person, but you can. Because I do. Eddie Munson is that person for me.

Everything about him infuriates me, his loud voice, obnoxious attitude, cocky demeanor.

But at the same time apart of me knows my life wouldn't be the same if he never existed at all.

Once upon a time, he was my best friend. The person I spent all of my time with. The person I cherished and adored. He's been by my side since kindergarten since he took me in under his wing.

That day on the playground has forever been scorched into my memory...

"You're a freak!" The blond boy spit in my face as he pushed me to the ground.

"Please just leave me alone!" I cried. Salty tears stream down my face.

"No! You're a weirdo freak!" He laughed in my face.

"Leave her alone Jason." A curly head boy called from behind him.

The blond boy named Jason turned around and laughed. "Oh look, it's the other freak!"

"Is that the only word you know?" The curly-headed boy asked. Jason's face contorted in shock at his snarky comment. The curly headed boy stands there with a smirk on his face crossing his arms over his chest. His dark brown eyes shoot over to mine, they're filled with a knowing sadness. A sort of guilt. Jason finally scurried off, his friends following close behind him.

"You okay?" He asked, holding his hand out for me to grab. I reach for it and he helps me off the ground. I nodded, wiping a tear off my cheek. "I'm Eddie."

"M-Maddy." I whimpered. "Why did you help me?"

He shrugs. "Because, your a lamb in need of a friend."

Ever since that day he declared to always protect me, and he did. Until he didn't.

I was his lamb and he was my lion.

We were inseparable, he was always at my house or I was always at his. We always stayed in trouble, with our parents, with teachers, with the cops. He taught me how to ride a bike, how to drive, how to smoke. He's who I got high with for the first time, and who I got drunk with. We were each others first kiss, both of us being fucking terrible, obviously.

I never thought anything could tear our friendship apart. Until her.

Stephanie caught the eye of Eddie his Junior year, couple months later our friendship started to crumble. We fought all the time, we stopped hanging out everyday. She soon started taking over my place in his life completely, and he let it happen.

I never knew what real heartbreak felt like until that day...

"Coming!" I yelled as someone knocked loudly at my door. When I opened it there stood Eddie, with the saddest look resting on his face. "Hey, what's up?"

"We need to talk." He muttered nudging past me to get inside. He walked to my living room and sat down, waiting for me.

"Okay?" I said as I walked over to the chair opposite him and sat down. He didn't speak at first, he just stared down at his hands twirling his rings on his left hand. "Eddie?"

His dark eyes eventually met mine, the sadness I know all to well filling them. "Look, Maddy, you know how much I care about you." He started.

What the fuck is this?