DrGray003's Daily Dose Of Poems

8. I Can't Be This Empty

My losses encompass the number of stars in the sky
I lost count when I realised I lost my self in the process
There should be something inside
A reason to keep breathing

I've lost so much I can't even recall what I'm missing inside
A heart or
perhaps the desire to keep going forth
Throw a coin inside me and hear it resonate a clink as though I am tin can

I am broken beyond repair
Not even Bob the builder could fix something as damaged as I am
Is there something to fill this hollow self that I've become or
Should I dig a hole and fill it with myself ,to be free from this shell
Of emptiness that I am

Like a child who calls the streets home
I lack the love of a mother
Is there someone who'd grace me with such feelings so I may feel
Less emptier than I already am
Lacking a purpose has made me yearn for death more than life

Since life won't care to love me I know death will welcome me with open arms
He'll give me the only embrace I'll ever get in this empty world of mine and so fill me with the nothingness of not existing

Only then will I be whole again