DrGray003's Daily Dose Of Poems

13. If Only It Was Real

If loving you is a disease
Then I can assure you that I'm infected with it
The symptoms of this illness are ever so evident to your eyes
Yet you feign ignorance
While holding the cure

Is my pain your pleasure?
I refuse to believe so but
You refuse to give me the cure
I've been sick for as long as I've known you
As though I have a virus you tend to maintain social distance

I can't bear to see you shed a tear
In front of me I hope
To see you smile so brightly
To shine a light upon me and
My dark world of solitude

Like a ray of hope
You decimated the thought of despair
That haunted me long before I met you
My heart aches for its love isn't reciprocated

If having you is a pipedream then
Please do not wake me
Let me dream and live out the fantasy of our love that will never happen
I wish you were mine but I know that it won't come true because I don't have a genie

When I blew out the candles at every birthday party i wished for you in my life
That tradition must be a hoax because those wishes never came true
Perhaps we're not meant to be
These are the signs the universe sends to imbeciles like me

If you were the ocean I'd drown in your love and swim tirelessly
But I know that I'm hallucinating
If only it was real
A wish that'll never come true