DrGray003's Daily Dose Of Poems

10. Against My Will

Forgiveness is not owed to all
Let alone an individual like him
A repulsive excuse for a human
Who does nothing but exploit others for the sake of his worldly desires
It's a shame the only others he hurts is me

Forgiveness is not a privilege given to those who deliberately do wrong knowing they'll be forgiven
It's a virtue some must perish without ever being graced by it

He did what he did because he felt like it wouldn't mean much
He had his way at the cost of my innocence and purity
Like a heist he thought he could get away with it
And get away with it he did

Who would blame him for thinking so while the current governing bodies of incompetents leech off of citizen taxes and tenders
Law and order is an illusion
That's fed to everything with a brain

They know what he's doing yet they do nothing to stop it
How much more must he take of me till I'm taken serious
I've opened more cases against him than I've opened my books
In the end I'm the one who's opened against my will

Does having money give him that much freedom?
The freedom to take away mine
Treat me like a slave with no rights
Simply because I'm born from a lowly family

He's bribed every copper I've met
As if he were trying to settle a bet
The only bet I see being settled is my life caught up in his net
His large networth has made me feel worth less

I've seen every social worker in the city and
Just as many psychiatrists as the number of times he's taken me
The therapy sessions do more harm
Than good because I'm forced to rewatch a horror movie that I starred in myself

My parents can do nothing but enjoy the money he gives them
Are we that poverty stricken?
That the life of their daughter
Can be given a price tag?
I've lost all hope in salvation
My own parents have abondened me

I've tried so many times to take his life and
I've failed just as many times
Perhaps I should try taking my own
And become the salvation I seek