Fire & Ice- Dabi FanFiction

Part 11: It does matter

***T/W, drugs, drug abuse, self-harm***

You open your eyes slowly feeling your body coming down from the high. You let out a sigh and put your arm over your eyes. If you knew any better you wouldn't get up and get another fix. You furrow your brow noticing you weren't on the cold bathroom floor. Catch must have taken you to the couch. You take your arm off your eyes and look at the ceiling. You squint your eyes confused that you weren't looking at the ceiling of the crack house. No this looks like the ceiling in the basement... You keep looking at it curiously, it was odd that you were seeing things now. You let out a soft chuckle wondering if you'd finally gone crazy. The moment of slight humor was shattered when you hear Dabi's deep voice float through the silence. And now you were hallucinating, or maybe you died in that festering decrepit bathroom.

You snap back to reality and realize things were really bad if you weren't at the crack house right now. You sit up quickly your eyes landing on Dabi who's sitting in the corner on the floor across from you. You look around feeling your blood run cold as you realize you actually were in the basement. Oh god, how the hell did I get here!?  You look back at Dabi slowly, the fear building in your chest. His eyes were filled with seething rage, and despite his menacing eyes, you almost smiled seeing him emmit an emotion. He speaks softly, his voice cold and angry.

"Is there something you want to tell me?"

You feel your stomach drop as his words slice through you.

"Clearly not."

"Where the fuck were you Maiko? And who the hell was the guy who brought you here?"

Damn it, Catch brought me here. Why the hell would he do this? You look away from Dabi crossing your arms. You felt the humility fill you up until it swelled and dripped down your face in the form of tears. You did it again, you made him hate you. You must disgust him, maybe he'll snap and kill you. It's not like you wouldn't deserve it.

"Look at me Maiko."

Your eyes stay locked on the wall even as you hear Dabi get up and cross the room. You feel the couch indent beside you, but you refuse to look over. Dabi grabs your face and forces you to look at him.

"What are you on?"

You keep your mouth shut, worried if you spoke you would simply crumble.

"Don't make me force you, I guarantee you won't like it."

You let out your breath as you look into his angry cold eyes.

"Heroin."

He lets out a deep grow as he keeps looking into your eyes.

"Why?"

"I-."

"Why would you hurt her?"

"Eh?"

You look at him baffled as his hand wanders over your wrapped-up arm, covering the needle scars and cuts. You yank your arm out of his grasp and pull away.

"Don't."

"I want to see what you did to her."

"What are you talking about?"

He grabs your arm ad tears the bandages off exposing the harm that littered your arm. His eyes drop as he slowly scans your arm. You try pulling away but he only holds your wrist tighter.

"You're done hiding Aiko."

The tears only stream down your face more as his soft voice breaks your heart.

"Stop it Dabi."

"Look what you did to her. Look how much you hurt my..."

You start to shake, you couldn't handle how he was looking at you. How soft his voice was, how sad, how hurt he looked.

"Dabi please stop."

He puts his head on yours looking down. His breath was uneven and rugged, almost as if he was....crying. You try to pull away unable to handle the pain anymore. You wanted to shoot up again and stop feeling. Stop the pain in your chest, forget how he's looking at you. You start to shake as you feel yourself slowly crumbling away. Dabi picks his head up looking into your eyes. His beautiful turquoise eyes filled with sadness. It was the first time since he'd been hurt you'd seen any semblance of emotion on his face. And yet it was the worst thing you could have ever seen. He turns his head slightly to the side and presses his lips to yours gently. Your eyes widen as you try to figure out what was going on. He breaks the kisses and whispers softly, his voice breaking as he speaks.

"Please take care of her Aiko. She means the world to me."

It was too much, too many things were happening at the same time. The overwhelming feeling caused you to finally snap. You break down crying and put your head on Dabi's chest as you fall apart. Sobbing loudly as you grab his shirt, clutching it tightly in your hands. You start to hyperventilate as you try desperately to process what was happening. Dabi pulls your head up making you look at him.

"You're adorable when you cry, even if it's ugly crying."

You scrunch your face as you glare at him. Why is he trying to tease me right now? You hiccup as you try to calm down.

"Shut up."

He chuckles softly and leans into your face whispering.

"Don't be feisty, little mouse."

What the fuck is happening right now?!