🥀In Loving Memory🥀

Chapter 45

"After encountering Ebony, I did approach Jazmine at one point," James admitted.

"When did you have time to do this when you clearly had work to do?" Huey asked, being questionable.

"Freeman, I worked way too much, the hospital didn't mind giving me a break," James bluntly spoke.

"Anderson, I highly doubt the hospital gave you any type of break," Huey said.

"What makes you believe that Freeman?" James asked.

"For starters, you're one of their best doctors so there of course going to want to have you on standby," Huey pointed out. "For years it seems as if you've been on track with your work and I highly doubt you ever had this much of an absence. I mean you said it yourself, Jazmine was always on your mind and you couldn't stand being away from her and not knowing her every move," Huey explained.

"Fine Freeman, if you must know, I was let go from my job, which is why I was able to stalk Jazmine, but we're not going to get into that," James admitted.

"Did you still live in Washington, or did you just move to West Virginia?" Huey asked.

"A little bit of both. I had my condo in Washington but I was temporarily staying in West Virginia just to be near Jazmine and the babies. Since nobody was going to keep me updated on her every move I had to do it myself," James answered.

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Since I was let go from my job, I moved to West Virginia to be closer to Jazmine. If the baby or babies were possibly mines, I wanted to stay as close as possible without interfering.

I know she didn't tell Huey about her pregnancy. He wasn't going to be here for everything. That being the ultrasounds, the birth, picking out clothes, etc.

I didn't want to be a deadbeat dad! I knew Jazmine was pregnant and I couldn't just stand there and not do anything.

Ever since she told me it's been on my conscious. At first, I didn't believe her but with there being proof that she was pregnant, I can't just stand back and not do anything. Especially if the baby could possibly be mine.

If they were to be born, I don't want Jazmine or those two lesbians telling the kids that I was a deadbeat dad and I didn't want to have anything to do with them.

I know it doesn't seem like it, but I love kids, not in a sexual way as Sarah and William would say, but in a parenting way. I always wanted to have a family. Believe it or not, I never wanted to invest all of my time into my career.

It's made a great impact on me today, but I don't know what else I want to do. I'm supposed to be settled down with someone and have a baby by now. Or I should have done it when I was in my late 20s.

I thought Jazmine would be the one I settled down with but it seemed as if she didn't feel the same way. Regardless of what has happened between us, I still want to be involved in the baby, or the baby's life.

That said, I want to be there for the ultrasounds, the nursery, picking out clothes, and even the birth.

The only thing I question is if I'm the father. I wasn't going to be involved if that baby was Huey's kid. I find it completely unfair to take care of a kid that is not mine. One part of me wants to be there for Jazmine while another part doesn't because the babies could possibly be Huey's.

William told me the babies could be mine. So maybe there's a rare chance it is. But what if they aren't? What if I just wasted my time caring for another man's kids and it not being worth jackshit?