Escaped the Summer (M)

Chapter 24

Nang makauwi na ako ay nabaling agad ang tingin ko sa trash can. Lumapit ako dito at biglang natigilan, halos nadurog ang puso ko nang makitang nakatapon roon ang pagkain na pinagluto ko kay papa.

My tears began to roll down in my cheeks as I felt the thousands of stabbing pain in my heart. I almost froze on where I was standing.

All of my efforts seem to have vanished into thin air. Is he really need to be heartless?' Why would he act as if he would accept it? Why would he just throw this away?!

Why are you so cruel. Dad.

Tumakbo ako nang mabilis sa kuwarto ko at nang makarating na ako dito ay kaagad kong sinarado ang pinto at halos napaupo sa sahig dahil sa kawakang balanse na meron ako ngayon.

I feel so weak. I really thought he would at least appreciate all my efforts. I shouldn't have even tried.

I aggressively wiped my tears as they fall even harder. I tried hard to not make noises because I hate it when someone hears me cry. I covered my face with the frustrations I feel.

I took my phone when it starts vibrating. Oh... Mom's calling.

I took a deep breath, clearing my throat. "Ma, w-what's up?" medyo nauutal na tanong ko.

["Next week na daw ang midterm exam niyo."]

Napapikit ako at pinunasan ang uhog ko. "U-uh yes po."

How did she know...

["I suggest that you should stop hanging out with your friends, focus on your studies instead,"] she suggested, making my heart break.

Pati ba naman kaibigan ko? Wala na ba talaga akong karapatang maging masaya? Makasama ang mga taong nagpapasaya sa akin. Bakit lahat na lang ng mga dahilan ko para sumaya ay tinatanggal nila.

"I- alright..." pagsuko ko.

I don't have any choices. But to listen.

["You're also entering college, make sure to maintain your grades, ayokong mas bumaba 'yan lalo na this last sem."] seryosong sambit niya at nang magsasalita na sana ako ay biglang nalaglag ang linya.

I almost can't breath. I had to find a place that could let me breathe properly to make my hearbeat calm. I lay down in my bed as I hugged my pillow tightly.

I could feel my heart breaking, sobrang naninikip na ito at halos hindi ko na maigalaw pa ang mga paa ko dahil sa panghihina ko. My hands were covering my mouth, begging myself not to make noises.

I hate seeing myself like this, crying silently, so no one could hear how broken I am.

My heart is breaking so hard that all of my tears are falling onto my pillow, and my hands are tightly wrapped around my stomach.

Sa gitna ng paghikbi ko ay may narinig akong katok na nagmumula sa labas.

"Ma'am, may naghahanap po sa inyo..." mahinhin na pinabatid sa akin ng aming kasambahay.

I looked at the ceiling, so my tears could stop from falling. "Please tell them to wait."

Dumiretso ako sa banyo at hinilamos ang mukha ko. I noticed the redness in my eyes. My eyes were swollen after I cried hard, and it was obvious.

Nakita ko ang black shade sa sulok kaya kinuha ko ito at inilagay sa mata ko.

Bumaba na ako at nang makalabas na ako ay natigilan ako dahil si Azkiro ang nasa harap ko. God. I forgot.

His face was confused. "Why are you wearing that?" He asked innocently, tilting his head.

I noticed the large paperbag that he's holding. But I pretend to not look at it. Sana hindi niya napansing umiyak ako dahil paniguradong magiging awkward 'tong situation.