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Emma

It had been two weeks since a mind blowing night of sex with Luke and also since I told him to go away and never contact me again. As hard as it was, I know it will be for the best in the end. I cried for a few days, but something finally hit me. I loved and still love Tucker. He was my first and always love, but I couldn't keep moping around. It's not the life he would want me to live. I have still been running to decompress it all at times, but I have also gone out during the day and been around people and even smiled some. At night I lay in bed thinking of the amazing night I had with Luke. Honestly at times I am filled with absolute guilt, but others just plain emptiness. And the thoughts that I have been left with have yearning for Luke Abrams to physically feel that emptiness, but I can't and won't touch it with a ten foot pole. I can't do that, it felt so wrong being with Luke, but oh so right at the same time.

Today I woke up early and put a few applications in at two elementary schools for the upcoming school year. It's time for me to get back into teaching. I taught preK and absolutely loved it. It was time to move on the best I could. After I filled a couple applications out I decided to head to the farmer's market in town. While wandering around looking at all the produce I ran into Abigail and Lindsey at a stand selling tickets for something. Instead of running the other direction I decided to talk to them before them me. I can do this.

"Hey guys?"

Both of them were kind of shocked but excited to see me, they replied in unison, "Emma!! How are you?"

"I have been better, but each day is getting better. I decided 6 months of wallowing in self pity was long enough."

They both smiled and brought me in for a hug. Lindsey was first to chime in, "Emma, I'm so proud of you. You are such a strong person."

To change the subject I ask, "What are y'all selling?"

"We are selling tickets to first ever summer gala to raise money for Children's Hospital." I smile thinking about the days I used to volunteer there. It was such a simpler time. It made me so happy. Made me think maybe I should go back to volunteering there. Lindsey continued her spill, "we will have food, drinks and a special guest...."

Before she could finish I cut her off, "I will take a ticket."

I handed her my card, it was definitely pricier than expected, but it would be worth it. We said our goodbyes and I told them I looked forward to the gala and having a good night out with them.