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Emma

I had told Luke that I loved him last night. I woke up early this morning and watched the sunrise while he slept in my bed. For once I wasn't second guessing my choices. I wanted to live again and be happy. I wanted to be carefree and love. I was watching the sunrise sipping on my coffee when I started to not feel great, I ran to the bathroom afraid I was going to be sick. I had done this a few times in the past couple months and assumed it was because of all the stress. I sat at the toilet and Luke came in.

"Are you ok? Are you getting sick?"

"Yea, I am good. I think the past three months have been stressful and I have just upset my stomach."

"You've done this before?"

"Just a couple times a week."

All of the sudden Luke is pale. I look at him and worry he is about to throw up too. "Are you going to get sick? Maybe we got a bug."

"Emma, when did this start?"

"I think about month ago." I am looking at him so confused.

"Could you be pregnant?" I shot my head up, I am still sitting by the toilet. Oh my God. There is no way, surely. We hadn't used protection, but I didn't feel like I needed to cause I wasn't having regular periods and I was always told if you are not having regular periods you can't get pregnant.

"Luke, there is no way." Now I am second guessing myself, thinking about the timeline. We had had sex in Nashville about three months ago. I start to stand and get a little dizzy. Luke catches me.

"We are going to a doctor right now."

"We don't have to go to a doctor we can just buy a test, but I don't think I am. Calm down."

He stops and just looks at me. "Emma, we need to know."

We get dressed and my brain is all jumbled right now. What if I am? I can't help but be excited but scared. Excited to have a chance at being a mom again, but scared of losing that opportunity. Also, scared of what will become of Luke and I. This is so new, but it feels like it could last forever. I tell myself to calm down and not get worked up. It's probably nothing. I get dressed and Luke does too.

I call a local obgyn and ask them if they have any same day appointments and they had a cancellation and got me in. I go in, fill my paperwork out and pee in a cup and they get my vitals. I was sitting in the room waiting for results and to meet with the doctor. I couldn't help but think of last time I went threw this, but with Tuck. He was excited.

"Luke, it doesn't matter what happens or what we find out. You don't have to worry about anything. I can do it all on my own."

He shoots up out of the chair and walks over to me and holds my hand. "Emma, I am trying to react the best way possible, but the thought of you carrying my baby would make me the happiest man in the world." I start to tear up when the doctor comes in the room.

"Congrats, you're pregnant!"

We look at each in shock but both happy. I am scared of the what ifs, but in this moment I enjoy it.