Let This Last Forever...| Beeduo

chapter 86.

Hello raindrops! I wanted to let you know that.. There's only gonna be like 14 chapters left until it's over because I've been planing a good ending ever since it started, and I promise it will be a good one. But I love you all so much and I wanted to say thank you for all the support because I wouldn't have kept going if it weren't for you guys and I really can't thank you enough for that. But I just wanted to say that but I'll shut up now and let you read.

Ranboo's pov*

I couldn't sleep for the rest of the night. My arm was in so much pain. Tubbo was holding me in his sleep like he normally does, it was comfortable and I felt safe but I couldn't sleep. I was in so much pain, I got up and stumbled into the bathroom to check on my eyes. They were normal but I felt paranoid I could have killed him tonight. He already saw what I did to myself.. What if I did the same thing to him but in a fatal place. I locked myself in the bathroom to shield myself from him. I couldn't hurt him. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I hurt him. I sat on the ground and pulled my knees to my chest and laid my head on my arms. I would get up every few minutes to make sure my eyes we're still ok. I was starting to get hungry but I couldn't risk hurting him. I stayed in the bathroom for the rest of the night I think I don't know I didn't have my phone so I couldn't tell time. I was just sitting there against the door hoping that nothing happens. I heard a knock on the door. "Ranboo.. I know your in there the door is locked and I can see your shadow under the door." Tubbo said. I started to cry. "I'm not opening the door if that's what you want me to d-do! I-I can't, I don't want to hurt you." I said. "Then I'll just sit against the door and talk to you." He said. I felt the door shake as he slid down it. "I don't trust myself right now." I said. "Are your eyes ok?" He asked. "Yeah.. There normal." I said. "Are you hungry? I can get you some food." He suggested. "Please? I'm starving, can you also tell me what time it is?" I asked. "Mhm! Give me one second." He said. I felt the door shake again as he got up. I heard his footsteps coming back to the door. "Ok uhm it's 7:45 am." He said. "Ok thank you." I said. "Hey baby? Before I make some food for you.. Can you open the door?" He asked. My breathing started to speed up a little bit. "N-no I cant!" I said. "Please? I just want to make sure your ok. I'll cover my eyes if that would make it better." He said. I thought about it for a minute. I opened the door and he came in. He knelt down in front of me. He had his bangs covering his eyes. He hugged me and I hugged him back. "I love you, ok? You can tell me anything." He said. I tilted his head and kissed him. "I love you too. And I know that I can tell you anything, and I know I can trust you. But I need a little bit of space right now ok?" I said. He nodded and let go of me. "I'm gonna get some food for you now ok?" he said. I nodded and he walked out. About 3 minutes later he came back and gave me a bowl of cereal and sat beside me. "Thank you." I said. He smiled and laid his head on my shoulder. "Anything for you.." He said softly. His bangs still covered his eyes. "Hey love?.. I just wanted to say thank you for helping me with this.. My dad and everyone else around me would ignore me." I said. He held the side of my face and kissed my cheek. "Always." He said. When I was done eating he took my bowl and went back downstairs to put it away. I got up and checked my eyes, they were still normal. I felt like it was safe for him to look me in the eyes now. A few minutes later he came back and I was still looking in the mirror. I turned around to face him. He looked down so he wouldn't make me uncomfortable. I made him look up at me and swept his bangs out of his eyes. "I feel like it's safe for you to look at me now so there's no need for you to do that anymore right now." I said and kissed him. He looked confused when I pulled away. He hugged me. "That's good, I want you to feel safe. I guess I'm finally doing something right.." He said quietly on the last part. I pretended not to hear it because I didn't know what to say to that. I hugged him tighter. "I love you Tubbo." I said. I felt him smile. He sounded like he was crying. "Hey are you crying?" I asked. He shook his head. "No.. I just like your scent." He said. I giggled I thought it was cute. "Shut up!" He said. "Ok maybe I will! Maybe I won't talk again!" I teased. "Nooo! I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that.." He said. I stopped talking just to mess with him. "Please don't stop talking!" He said. I didn't say anything back. "You can un-shut up now I'm sorry!" He said. I laughed at his words. "'Un-shut up' that's creative bee." I laughed. He started to laugh too. "Why thank you!" He said holding his head high in pride. I kissed him once again and laid down on the bed. "I'm gonna try to sleep now ok?" I said. "Ok!" He said and a few minutes later he laid down beside me. I fell asleep before I could react but I knew he fell asleep as well.