Let This Last Forever...| Beeduo

Chapter 90. I dont want him to feel this way.

Whoo guys, guess what? Only 10 chapters left! I'm very excited but also sad. But I have a very good ending planned and I'm working on a short story but it's not related to the dsmp but I hope you still like it, anyways that's all so I'm gonna let you read now. BYYEEEE!

Ranboo's pov*

Tubbo curled up into a ball on my lap as he fell asleep in my arms. My heart melted as I knew he meant what he said when he told me that he felt safe and comfortable in my arms, "I love you." I whispered as I carefully laid down. I really want to know who did that.. I want to know who made my bee uncomfortable. I do have a feeling it was Jack though, but I don't know. Maybe he'll tell me tomorrow. I laid down on my side being careful not to wake him up. I played with his hair for a few minutes and fell asleep.

Time skip the rest of the night brought to you by the killers.

I woke up and felt tiny wet spots on my chest. Tubbo was crying. "Tubbo what's wrong?" I asked. "Nothing.." He answered. "Bee tell me why you're crying please?" I begged. He shook his head. I sat up and made him look me in the eyes. "Tell me what's on your mind." I said sternly but lovingly. His eyes widened at my determination. He shook his head again and tried to look away but I didn't let him. "Is it about yesterday?" I asked. He nodded. "Can you tell me why it's bothering you?" I asked. "He told me it was a joke when it didn't feel like one, and I don't want you to think I was cheating on you when I wasn't.." He explained. "Can you tell me who it was?" "... J-Jack.." He stuttered. "I knew it!" I thought. He looked down laying his forehead against my chest.

Tubbo's pov*

I looked down because I was crying and I didn't want to. I felt him gently kiss the top of my head. He played with my hair for a couple of minutes to calm me down. "I don't deserve you, you deserve the world. I don't deserve your love. You have every reason to hate me after what I did to Aaron. You have every right in the world to hate me for the way I treat you!" "But Tubbo I don't hate you..." He said. "And that's something I don't understand! You can have every damn reason to hate someone but you don't! And that's one thing that I will never understand about you." I cried. "I love you but I don't understand why and how you still love me!" I said. "Tubbo.. I'll always love you, even when I left I still loved you the same and I love you even more now." He said. "But I don't deserve it!" I cried harder. "Tubbo? Do I make you happy?" He asked. "O-of course you d-do you've always made me happy." I said. "Then you do deserve me and my love, you deserve whatever makes you happy." He said. "No... I don't, I didn't deserve to live when Kaitlyn came to kill me, I should've died!" "Please don't say that.. If you died I would've killed myself because... You're my soulmate Tubbo, you're my one and only, you're my other half," "but I cut myself all the time, I hurt you so much you don't even realize it!" I said. He grabbed my hand and lifted my sleeves. "Tubbo, these scars.. They're not scars from sadness, guilt, or depression. They're scars from strength. These scars show you how strong you are, these scars make you beautiful, and most of all, they show that no matter what happens.. You're going to get through it." He looked me deeply in my eyes. "Do you promise I don't hurt you?" I asked desperate to prove myself wrong. He nodded, I started to cry again. "Shh it's ok.. I promise." He whispered. "I don't want you to feel this way I want you to feel like you're loved and safe, I promise that I'll help you get through this, it's just another thing that I love about you." He said. "Thank you.." I said.

Happy Saturday raindrops! I love you all sooooooo much I hope you've had a good day and I hope you have amazing ones to come, but don't forget to take care of yourselves! BYEEEEE!!!