Things I Can't Say Out Loud

be my father again...

You don't seem to really care about me...
You seem to only care about yourself.
You only want me to do the things
That are necessary to you,
But I have a life too.

You don't seem to love me...
Not when I am not ' doing things properly'.
Not when I am being myself and enjoying life
For once...

You don't seem to understand me...
You look at my pain as if it isn't real,
You look at my tears like they are
Just rain droplets, while my eyes
Are no clouds.

You don't seem to be there for me...
More like against me.
You restrain and suffocate me,
Keeping me chained up.
You cut my wings so I could not fly.

So, what can I do for you,
To at least seem like
A father again...