How To Hate

The Love Im Sending

Brittneys POV

It's been 6 months since that day and it's been so hard for me.

I was at Juvi and Neshas house for a cook out they were having. Maine, Chelle, Dani, Silk and a couple of other people was here as well.

"What's up Wodie... right now... yeah she is...aight " Juvi laughed. He hung up the phone and asked Nesha to turn it to BET.

I saw Wayne on the screen. I rolled my eyes and smacked my teeth.

"Ayeee there go my nigga" Maine said.

"Juvi please change it"

"He wanted me to put this on for you" he said.

"I love you Brittney" Wayne said and then the beat dropped.

"I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending, and that's all I can do (that's all I can do mama)
The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart (I hope you hear me)

Pain, since I've lost you, I'm lost too
Nigga feeling like he at the bottom like a horse shoe
Sorry for the trouble that I put you and your heart through
God knows that I'd do anything for a part two, or to
Be praying for the day you come back to me, saying that you forgive me
Give me another chance, I'm needing it like a kidney
I don't wanna advance, give me back her hands
Give me back her touch, I don't ask for much
But I fucked up, I know I fucked up, I admit I fucked up
But everybody fuck up, now this other nigga lucked up
Tell him me and my clique don't give a fuck
'Cause um, we're from New Orleans, she was from Georgia
She was my down chick, I was her soldier
I was her gangster, she was my shoulder
You were the pistol to my holster bang!

You've been hiding, never letting it show
Always trying to keep it under control (I see you're hiding it mama)
You got it down, and you're well on your way to the top (keep doing your thing)
But there is something that you forgot

You forgot about the house, you forgot about the ring
I remember everything, I just wanna hear you sing
I remember the love right after the fights
You can't tell me you don't remember those nights
And if I would cry, then you would cry twice
To me you are the brightest star under sunlight
See take away my title, take away my stripes
You give me back my girl and you give me back my life
Give me back my girl and you give me back my life
See this is just a nightmare, so I blink twice
Open up my eyes hoping she'd be in my sight
I remember the time, I wish I could bring it back
What she mean to me is what I mean to rap (what I mean to rap)

You've been hiding, ) never letting it show
Always trying (I see you're hiding it mama)
To keep it under control (but I know you know)
You got it down (I know you do)
And you're well on your way to the top
(But I wish you and yours nothing but happiness shorty)

But I hope you haven't forgot about me up in the living room watching Sports Center
You were cooking dinner, I was such a sinner, but the Lord is a forgiver
You know they say if you pray then you can get your blessings ordered and delivered
And your boyfriend is not like me
Ma you even went and got a teardrop like me
I remember we would sit at home all day
You called me "butter", I called you "babe"
My momma asked about you, my partners did too
I know your daughter will be so amazing like you
And I know you probably wish you never met me, and I just wish you never forget me
And let me say, please don't worry 'bout the women I have been with
No engagement can amount to your friendship
And I hope that nigga know he got a queen, and all I can do is dream damn!

I've been lonely, I've been waiting for you
I'm pretending, and that's all I can do
The love I'm sending ain't making it through to your heart"

Tears were falling from my eyes. He sampled the song that I used to sing in high school all the time and made it about me.