First Glance [Minsung]

Chapter 13

Small hand stops his action before he can proceed, resulting in him opening his eyes. Then before he can process what's happening, Jisung has already left his spot. 

He missed the expression shown by the younger. Was it shocked? Angry? Disgusted? Terrified? He just hopes he doesn't fuck this up. But then again, he didn't consider Jisung's feelings and thoughts about what he was going to do. He didn't ask and stupidly assumed the latter had interest in him too. So, if Jisung felt all of those emotions toward his action, toward himself, he-

He doesn't realize he has been crying until the salty water sliding down his cheeks. The thought of Jisung leaving his side or even his life entirely must have triggered the break down.

But that doesn't matter now. 

Having Jisung by his side isn't his priority now; getting his forgiveness is.

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Jisung sighs. He has been standing in front of the door for only God knows how long. Since when does spilling what bugs him become so difficult anyway? He asks himself. Right. Because the only person whom he usually opens up first is going to be the topic of the talk.

A startled gasp escapes his small mouth as the door suddenly opens, revealing Seungmin. "You know I can clearly see your silly lost face from the monitor inside, right?"

Jisung can only offer a small sheepish smile at that. His slightly crooked pointed finger scratches his chubby cheek in an attempt to hide the embarrassment.

"Come in."

Once wearing the guest slippers, he follows Seungmin to the living room.

"I assume you haven't had dinner yet." Seungmin states rather than asking. "Or even lunch? I mean- you just disappeared since then."

"Now that you mention it, I'm hungry." Jisung slumps himself onto the couch.

"I still have Kimchi stew. Want some?"

"Oh, God. Yes, please."

Seungmin hums. "Text Felix you're here while I'm preparing your dinner."

[20 minutes later]

"You really aren't gonna ask me anything, are you?"

Seungmin lightly snorts at that. "You decide." Then utters the same response he gave to Felix earlier that day.

"Ugh... I don't know where to start though."

Knowing it may take a while for Jisung to untangle his messy thoughts, Seungmin decides to take the lead. "Why did you suddenly leave? Skipping the last two classes to be exact?"

It's not his intention to start blushing. But with the lack of response? It may give his best friend a chance to put his mind in the gutter.

"You-"

"No- I mean- it had to do with him. But no- I mean- I left the school alone. By myself-"

"I know." Seungming interrupts.

"Eh?"

"Minho sunbae went to our class, actually. He looked for you. Saying he wanted to apologize to you."

"He did? But why?"

"You tell me." Seungmin shrugs. "In all seriousness though, what happened? Did he do something to you? Like something so messed up? I mean- he looked like someone was dying when I said you didn't attend any classes since lunch- and I'm not exaggerating." He shudders. "Not gonna lie, if you didn't text us telling you were safe, I'd be panicking from seeing his expression alone."

Jisung gulps, wetting his lips. "He... He tried to kiss me."

Seungmin's jaw drops. "He did what?!"

"I didn't mind it- I mean-" Jisung sighs, sounding frustrated. "I wanted to kiss him back." He mumbles the last sentence, kind of not wanting his best friend to catch that.

"So why did you run away?"

"I don't know what I'm feeling right now is- y'know- what I truly feel. I like someone else. But it's certainly one-sided." He bitterly chuckles. "I don't wanna make him, Minho sunbae, as a rebound."

Seungmin hums and seemingly begins to figure out the complicated feeling Jisung may experience at the moment. 

"This- the person that I like... It's Hyunjin."

"I know."

Jisung blinks. "Was I that obvious??"

"Kind of? But-" Seungmin holds his tongue.

"But what?"

"It's different."

"What is?"

"I just thought you simply adore him, not like like Hyunjin. Hyunjin, on the other hand, he's quite loud."

Jisung frowns. "So I'm just that oblivious, huh? Too stupid to notice that he likes Felix."

"Yeah- no." Seungmin gives his best friend an encouraging pat on his shoulder. "So what are you gonna do now?"

Jisung gives him hopeful puppy eyes at that, making Seungmin rolls his eyes.

"I'm glad you tell me.. come to me to talk about your concern like this. But y'know the answer isn't here, right?"