Queen of Joseon

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

Queen Jennie's POV 

I'm now at the Sajeongjeon  Hall (a main executive office of Joseon Palace), I went back to carry out my duties three days after my attempt abduction of Lim Clan. It also has been three days when I felt changes in Chaeyoung's behavior towards me. She always at the Royal Doctor ward and I kept seeing her with a lady tall as her which I remember one of the daughter of the chief at the small village I've visited three days ago. I don't know why I felt like she's avoiding me and she's always with that lady. 

I don't want to think Chaeyoung is interested with anyone as I know her feelings for me are real and true but she's acting like I'm not her lover. She's always busy at training those knights and she had never visited me at night. I shall ask her about this. I don't want her to be interested with anyone but me. She's all I have as of now. I can't let her get away from me. 

I want to take a rest as I have a lot of responsibilities at my back. I shall visit Chaeyoung at the training ground as I will invite her tonight at my cabin. I will ask her everything about the lady she's always with. 

I walked towards the training ground but I don't see any shadow or figure of Chaeyoung. I decided to asked one of her knights. They told me Chaeyoung went to the Royal Doctor ward. Why she always have to be there? Is she sick? Or did she got wounds? 

I went towards the Royal Doctor ward, I knocked on the door and when I opened it there are no one inside the ward. I decided to went outside and look for them. I walked then I saw them below the tree, they are sitting comfortably at a bench while Chaeyoung is smiling widely at the Doctor is saying. I decided to walk towards them but my feet can't move. I felt hurt and I want to see if Chaeyoung is genuinely smiling at the Doctor. It's real, her smile which I thought were only mine was smiling with the lady she's with. I suddenly felt a tear fell from my eyes. Is this what pain feels like. I have never felt this again ever since Mother died. 

I don't want to hurt myself anymore, I want to leave this place and I want to be at my sanctuary. Even with this cold wind hitting my face. I walked and went to see Sky (Ha-neul). I went on his back and ride him towards my sanctuary. If I don't leave now, I might hurt more if I saw her face. A face so innocent but always clouding my mind. I kept feeling cold wind in my body but I ignored it as I want to arrive fast to where I want. 

I finally arrive, spring is nearly close while winter will soon ends. I want to cherish winter more as I felt this pain in my body. I want to feel numb by this cold season. I'm grateful I felt nothing but coldness. I leaned down my body at a tree while I sat down at the snow below the tree. 

This is the image I saw earlier but right now, Chaeyoung isn't with me and she's not smiling warmly at me. Her face is all I can think again. Why I can't get you out of my head Chaeyoung? You're beauty which always captivated me and now it's hurting me so much. I want to not think of her, I closed my eyes and decided to sleep. If I ever saw her in my dreams then I will gladly make her mine again. 

I heard a lot steps from someone, I might still be sleeping. I saw a tall physique with white long hair looking down at me. Chaeyoung is in my dream? If she is then I shall do what I said earlier. I saw her went down on me and tries to carry me but I grabbed her neck and I kissed her with anger and hurt. I felt her pulling away from me but I didn't let her. 

"You're here. I shall make you mine again." I said with my low voice and kissed her again. I bite her lower lip as I was so mad at her for smiling at someone not me. I felt her gently touch my face then move away from me. Her warm hands that kept me awake.

"We shall leave now My Queen. This place is had cold temperature and you might get sick." She said softly while looking at my eyes. 

"I will leave if I want to. If you want to go back then I'm not coming with you. I can go back by myself." I said coldly and averted my eyes away from her. I felt her warm hands touch my chin and makes me look at her. She tried to plant a kiss on my lips but I avoided her it landed on my cheek. I stood up and walk towards Ha-neul. I was about to ride him went I felt Chaeyoung pulled me. She grabbed my waist and carried me. She leaned my back on a tree then looked intensely in my eyes.