Choosing time

Chapter 17

We brought some food and other supplies to her house. Asher decided to make us some dinner while we picked out a movie to watch. Levi set up the projected on one of the blank walls in her house. We picked the movie Tangled. 

After picking the movie we made a blanket fort. Trying everything we could to have as much fun as we did as kids. 

When Asher finally came in with the food, we started the movie. He had made chicken fried rice. Finishing my plate and snuggled up with Asher, we hadn't told the others yet about our kiss. I couldn't tell if Asher wanted to date or not. He hadn't said anything about it ever since. 

Our dishes piled up outside of the fort. Ruth and Levi cuddled together. Them sharing a blanket and everything. Meanwhile Asher didn't even look me in the eyes. Did I do something wrong? 

I made the excuse to take the dishes to the sink. It hurt me that he distanced himself now. I tried to ignore it. Pushing my feelings down. Maybe he was just stressed I mean we all are. 

I collected my thoughts and went back to the fort. Levi was already asleep, he slumped over in Ruth's lap. Dominic was in the middle of Asher and Ruth. What if I just kept my distance from him for a bit?

 I sat next to Dominic giving Asher space. He looked confused but what else should I do? God he was so hard to read. Giving me so many mixed feelings. He's the one who kissed me. Or did he? Was it me? I can't recall it anymore Ive thought about it so much the story has changed so many times. 

I started to fall asleep slowly falling over. My head gently resting on Dominics shoulder. 

The morning came and pure usual I was the first up. I was a major morning person. I rubbed my eyes and yawned. As I sat up I looked around. A bit of slobber dried on my cheek. Some on Dominic's shirt. I wiped it off a bit embarrassed. 

It had been a while since I've had shower and since we were finally decently safe I went to take one. I walked out of the living room and into the guest bedroom to get clothes out of my suit case. 

I grabbed a dark brown shirt and long brown cargo pants. I also grabbed a hoodie to throw over since it was extremely cold in the house. After I grabbed my clothes I went back to the bathroom. 

The water turning a mucky light brown. As disgusting as it was I felt relieved that I could finally be clean. At least I didn't have to wash my hair anymore. It felt freeing like weights were lifted of my shoulder. I was more confident then ever now. 

When finishing I stepped out of the shower and dried myself off. The shower calmed me and made me feel a lot better. I picked up my clothes and started dressing. A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts. 

"I'm almost down." I said raising my voice to make sure they could hear me. 

"Ok take your time, I just need to talk to you," the voice was Ashers. What did he need to talk about? I mean its probably how he's been ignoring me since the kiss. Maybe this would set things straight with us.

 I walked out of the room, as nervous as I was I had to hear what he had to say. 

"I've been thinking of us recently and I don't know. Were both I don't think in the right mental state to date. Even if you liked me before I still think we have to wait quite a bit til we know our feelings are legit. I hope you understand." 

"Yeah, I get it," I knew I should have seen this coming. I got his points but I've loved him since elementary school. "Do you think we could ever date?" 

"I honestly wish I knew. I love you I really do but I don't think we can." He teared up I felt bad that he thought he had to explain this to me. 

"Ok well I will always like you as a friend I promise," I smiled and dried his eyes. He gave me a hug before leaving to let me get ready the rest of the day. 

I tried to push what he said out of my mind for the time being. My emotions couldn't take over I had to give another speech today. And the meeting. I had to tell them the plan. The plan and the revolution planning. I had way too mich to do today, I'll revisit that later.