Lie or Die | BLOCK B B-Bomb

Chapter 11

I laid in my new bed for a few hours, thinking. It may sound impossible, but I actually laid in bed for hours, doing absolutely nothing but thinking.

I kept remembering things that happened between me and Sookyo, or me and Jiwon, and it was making depressed. The moment when I 'tried to kill myself was playing over and over in my head.

I was hanging a rope on the ceiling in the garage for Uncle Yomi. He claimed that one of my cousin's had to train, and needed a rope, but Uncle Toni didn't want to put it up. It made no sense, and that angered me even more when Sookyo walked in.

"Don't hang yourself! You have so much to live for, Raeki!" Sookyo pleaded.

I knew she didn't care. Even though at the time, she should've cared, she didn't. She just wanted me to get into trouble and get me far away from Jiwon.

As much as killing myself sounded nice at the time, I wouldn't actually do it, even if I had every reason to. And it made me emotional to know that Sookyo wouldn't care if I did or not.

"You know that's not what's happening, idiot."

Just then, Jiwon rushed in with Uncle Yomi at his side. They gasped, even my uncle who knew I was supposed to hang the rope up.

"What's going on?"

"Raeki tried to hang herself!"

Jiwon's face fell, and it looked like he was near tears. It took him a moment to take in the information. But then he looked angry.

"How could you?" He stuttered, looked at his feet.

I don't know what clicked in my brain, but I decided to go with the suicide attempt.

"You know how hard it is living in a house that doesn't love you?"

Uncle Yomi turned furious, "What does that mean? Both Sookyo and I love you so dearly!"

Jiwon ignored his statement completely and spoke very lowly.

"I'd be fine without you if you left me right now." Jiwon growled at me, a look of hurt and pure hatred on his face. A tear rolled down his cheek.

"But I wouldn't be. Do you realized what you did to me? I'm gonna die without you to be there for me." I cried out.

He turned and walked out of the room completely. He thought I was suicidal. He only was my friend because he felt sympathy for me. Jiwon, was he really a friend? Surely he was, right?

It was only a month ago. It felt longer though. It felt like it was still happening to me, but at the same time, it felt like everything was over.

Things could be worse. I knew that. It wasn't long after remembering that that I fell into a deep sleep.

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I felt shuffling beside me. I opened my eyes and viewed my surroundings, a little confused on what was going on. I didn't recognize my area, until a second later when I remembered everything.

Out of pure curiousity, I looked ahead of me and saw Jaehyo flopped in his bed, completely asleep. He looked adorable, the way his mouth was hanging open, drool pouring out. It made me happy to know I wasn't the only one with drool.

And to my left, Minny lay on his stomach, his left arm sprawled over my abdomen, and his hand grasped the side of the bed, practically trapping me in my spot.

So do I wake him up? I could turn my body and fall back asleep... Fuck it, I'm not waking him up.

I somehow managed to turn until I was on my stomach next to Minny. It felt like an intimate moment, until I remembered that it was Minny, not someone I was in love with or something.