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Let Go Of Everything

After the shock that came with realising that I had a tiny human inside of me, the fear set in.
I looked at Tyler, my vision blurred with tears.
"What am I going to do?" I sobbed, pressing my sweaty palms against my jeans.
Tyler stared at the floor. Even he seemed stumped for ideas.

My life is over

"H-hey guys," Connor shuffled in from where he had just finished filming his video.
I looked up at him with bloodshot eyes, My chest heaving with every sob.

"Oh my..what's happened?" He stepped towards me warily, like if he moved too quickly, I would just fall apart.

I looked at Tyler to speak for me.

"Can I tell him?" He whispered, his eyes darting from me to Connor.
"What have I got to lose?"
So Tyler explained the current situation . With every word, Connor's eyes widened, with every sentence he looked at me with sad eyes.
When Tyler was finished, Connor perched next to me on the couch.

"A-are you going to keep it?" He said quietly
I gulped.
"Sorry, I shouldn't have asked,"

"No! It's fine. A-and I don't know," I stuttered

"You still need to tell Troye." Tyler reminded me, his expression grave.
I nodded, having almost forgotten.

"When are you--" Connor began

"Now. I want to tell him now, where is your computer?" I said standing up, and wiping at my tear stained cheeks swiftly.
"In my room but--"

"Do you have skype?"

"Uh..yeah..are you sure you want--"

I walked briskly to Tyler's bedroom where the camera equipment was still set up. I navigated over piles of clothes to his desk where his computer was set up, switching it on.
I bounced my leg up and down nervously, chewing my lip.
I needed to do this before I changed my mind.
The computer hummed to life and I double clicked on the skype icon.

Thank goodness Tyler hadn't signed out.
I let the mouse hover over Troye's profile picture before I clicked call. I sighed and clicked, leaning my head back so I could stare at the ceiling, whilst listening to the dial tones.
My thoughts drifted elsewhere momentarily.
"AYY TYLER IS CALLING ME," Troye's voice boomed down the speakers.
I hadn't realised he had accepted the call.
His back was turned to me as he fiddled with something on his desk.
"Troye." I said quietly.
"Just a minute, Ty," He giggled
"Troye, it's me. Noah,"I said again.

He jerked his head around and stared aghast at the screen.
"Noah?"
A small smile spread across his cheeks.
I felt the urge to smile too.
"I..I need to tell you something," I said, my eyes stinging.
"Me too," Troye interrupted, grinning. "I miss you. I love you. I didn't want to leave you and I know it might seem like--"
"I'm pregnant" I blurted out.
His smile dissolved as quickly as it was plastered on his face.
"What?" He narrowed his eyes.
"I'm pregnant with your--our baby." I repeated
"It can't be." He said quietly
"But I took the test, there was-"
"No. I mean it can't be mine. I-I wasn't there."
"But you're the only one I've been with, it has to be yours." I insisted, tucking my greasy hairs behind my ear
"Does the name PJ ring a bell? Look, I'm sorry but that baby is not mine. There's no way it could be. Goodbye, Noah,"
The line cut.
"Troye?" I said at the blank screen
"Troye come back,"
A tear made it's way down my cheek and rested on my upper lip.
I howled, my nose and eyes streaming.

"Troye!!"

Tyler rushed into the room and found me, wailing at the computer screen.
He switched it off and held me, rocking me backwards and forwards like an infant.

A/N
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