I ended up staying at the chateau last night because even though I sobered up a little it wasn't enough and I didn't really fancy going back to figure eight late at night. I woke up sprawled out on the hammock once again. Since I had been back everytime I stayed here I either slept on the sofa or outside on the hammock because JJ insisted that the spare room in the chateau was no longer mine. At this point I just felt so out of place like I was some kind of orphan getting thrown around between families with nothing to call her own. Once again I felt alone.
I climbed out the hammock and began to walk down the road back towards figure eight. I was still only in cotton shorts and an oversized t-shirt and at 6am in the morning it was a but chilli to be wearing that.
It had been about 10 minutes since I left the chateau when a sports car with tinted windows pulled up next to me. The window rolled down to reveal Jase driving the car.
"Hey you. Want a lift." He smiled at me but I kept walking and ignored him. I wasn't too sure how to feel around him anymore. I hated him for what he did to me but part of me expected it and knew that he was having a bad day and just needed to take out his anger on someone. The same thing happened when we were together but never this bad. Back then we would take out our anger verbally and maybe there would be a couple punches here and there from both sides but in the end we would just end up having angry make up sex and then we would be fine.
" Lorrena it's too windy to be walking to all the way nack home in that clothing. Just get in the car and I'll give you a lift ok?" I turned to faced him. He was right I still had atleast another 25 minutes to walk and I had goosebumps up my arms. I swung the car door open, sat down in the passenger seat then slammed the door in a huff.
" I'm sorry about the other day. I got in an argument with my family and it was like they were all against me an-" I put my hand over his mouth." You needed to take your anger out as usual. I get it Jase.But if it happens again you know I will have no choice but to murder you." I took my hand away from his mouth and we both laugh. " If you do that I'll come and haunt you for life." This is why we broke up. We were to toxic to each other for our own good. However it felt good to just laugh with him again and it took me back to all the good memories we made back in Atlanta.
" So are we good?" He broke the silence." As long as you promise to not give me anymore bullshit. I may have put up with it in Atlanta but I came back here to get away from it so I guess if you promise to stop this shit then yeah we are good." He gave me a smile and bring his eyes away from the road for just a second to look at me as the car comes to a stop.
" I still like you Rena." I sighed and looked up at him and placed my hand on the back of his neck." Jase we can't. I can't. We just aren't good for each other and you know that's why we broke up." He looked so disappointed which made me feel guilty and part of me wanted it but mostly because for once I wanted to feel like someone actually loved me. " I know that but I need like...like closure or...something to help me let go." He paused and I blankly stared at him." Like a goodbye kiss." He blurted out like he had just had a eureka moment. " Jase I'm not Kissing you." I said softly." No like a last kiss to burry our history and feelings to start fresh." As much as I didn't want to kiss him right now it would maybe give us a chance to be on good terms for once without it being awkward or toxic." Whatever makes you sleep at night I gues- before I could finish he grabbed my face and pulled me into him smashing his lips on mine and I kissed back. The kiss was desperate from his side for a second as he softened under my touch and deapened the kiss passionately. If someone told me I would be making out with the guy that beat me up nearly a week ago I would call them crazy but here I am with my psycho ex exchanging saliva.
He dropped me back home amd I walked into the kitchen to my mother with her arms crossed like she had been waiting for me. " Where have you been." Oh shit she's pissed. " I went to see uncle John alright is that aloud." She rolled her eyes at me. My phone buzzed at I looked down at a message from Sarah.
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Fanfiction" I may need help it hurts too much." " Lorrena Lopez are you asking me to undress you." Haters to Friends. Friends to Lovers. Lorrena returns back to the old outer banks but this time its different. She's older and everything is changing. JJ Mayba...
