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22. The Search

' I've been holding my breath
I've been counting to ten
Over something you said
I've been holding back tears
While you're throwing back beers
I'm alone in bed
You know I, I'm afraid of change
Guess that's why we stay the same
So tell me to leave
I'll pack my bag, get on road
Find someone that loves you
Better than I do
Darling I know
Cause you remind me everyday
I'm not enough, but I still stay
Feels like a lifetime '

I sung my heart out on that drove with tears streaming down my face, I knew what I had to do now.  I need to leave and go have a fresh start somewhere. I need to get over my feelings I have for JJ and to do that I can't be around him but he's always with the pogues and I would never come in-between any of them so I'll keep in touch with them, I just can't be with them if JJ'S there.

Caroline kicked me out so that makes it easier to leave and Marcus is hunting me down like a fucking predator so if I leave somewhere he won't find me I won't have to worry and I can leave this awful life in the past. Luckily I didn't unpack all of my bags after I was kicked out amd went to stay with John b at the chateau and I left most of them in my truck so I guess im all set now.

I felt like I had been driving around in circles for hours, maybe I should find somewhere to park up and plan out where I'm going to go. Right on the border of killdare island there was an abandoned construction sight which looked like they started building a house then scrapped it.

I parked my truck in the back corner so no one could find it. I didn't want to be found and it would be stupid to park it right at the front because the pogues or Marcus's agents are sure to recognise it.

With the pogues:

"Guys chill out we will find her." Pope said raising his voice and waving his arms in the air and walked away from the two boys arguing.  "Its been hours she could be anywhere, all because you fucked with her feelings JJ, she is literally heartbroken because of you." John b said pointing at him with an angry glare. "Well she was screaming at me and wouldn't let me speak." JJ snapped then walked over to kiara and Pope "We have to find her so are you all going to help or sit there and do nothing." JJ snapped.

"We need to think more strategical. Where have you actually checked because if you know where she hasn't been then it narrows it down to where she could be." Pope spoke wisely. "She's not at her mothers or Sarah's, I messaged Sarah and Sawyer and they both haven't seen her either." JJ answered. "I have been all around the cut and she was no where to be seen also her farther agents don't know she has gone because they were following me while I was out looking." John b explained.

"Its settled then Kiara and ill will go look round figure eight near the docks. JJ you go look the other side of figure eight near the border and John b you stay here." Pope stated as he turned to follow Kiara into her car. " Wait why do I have to stay here." John b questioned with a frown. "Someone has to stay here incase Ren comes back." Pope shouted as Kiara's car pulled away.

Back with Lorrena:

I had been at the construction sight for hours now, figuring out where the hell to go maybe I could go to a different state like Florida or maybe even California but that would be one Heck of a journey by myself just in my truck. All I knew is I was going to have a very long drive ahead and I needed enough food to last me the trip so i walked to the nearest shop.

The shop was small and had a friendly atmosphere to it. I grabbed as much as I could fit into my arms, paid and stuffed it all into my back pack before wondering back outside and making my way back to the construction sight which was a 10 minute walk away. I decided I would set off tomorrow morning so I had the night to plan my route out.