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15. The Court Day

The day finally came. I had been sat in that cell for three weeks and four days which gave me alot of time to really sit and think about my life. With the help of aunt Bessy I can happily say I have changed slightly or she likes to say I have amplified my soul and let my true colours appear. I was alot stronger mentally and physically. I now didn't care about anyone's opinions, I don't care how they feel towards me I only care about my feelings. Not in a selfish way though I obviously still care deeply for my friends and some of my family more now than I did before and I would kill for those i was close to, I just didn't care about people I weren't close to and I couldn't give two fucks about what they think of me.

I was fearless now I was mentally and physically strong enough to take on Rafe without a second thought. I finally learnt that I am a strong fearless beautiful being that can take whatever shit is thrown at her and succeed with ease. The most important part of all of this is, I had aunt bessy to thank for it.

A prison guard dragged me out that cell and I felt like I had been walking for hours. Before I reached the court room I could hear all the commotion coming from in it. I had multiple prison guard walking me down there and they were acting as if I was dangerous. I don't blame them though I may or may not have had a few blackouts and outbursts that resulted in me breaking out of my cell and attacking a few guards which happened a couple of times in the time I have been here but i have no idea where these sudden outbursts have come from then again what can I say I had to take my anger out on someone.

Yesterday I was also dragged out of my cell to see this random old lady that did tests on me. No one told me why but maybe I was about to find out.

"Lorrena Lopez may be present in court today however with recent test results she is not fit to partake." I heard as the doors open and just seeing the general public again made my blood boil. They sat me down at the front next to some random man which I assumed was I lawyer although last time I checked I don't have one nor did i hire one. The prison guards doubled in numbers and most of them stayed around me. If someone didn't tell me why the hell everyone is acting like im clinically mental I will flip. I clenched my fists, my mind clouded and all of my senses shut off as the distant voice of the judge started back up again.

I couldn't focus myself enough to understand what she was saying but as the prison guards lifted me to my feet and my name rolled off of that disgusting women's tongue I snapped out of it. " Lorrena Lilith Lopez under the North Carolina Law you are charged with trespassing on private property, vandalism and theft. If convicted the maximum sentence would be a 6 year sentence." At this point I couldn't care less how long I spent here but by the sounds of the fucking audience I had behind me it was chaotic.

I sat there for hours drowning out everything which wasn't hard because apparently when I get so angry my vision and hearing clouds. I lost count How many prison guards had surrounded me on my third successful attempt breaking the cuffs that were way to tight around my wrists. They would definitely leave nasty bruises but at that point I was so bored so breaking the hand cuffs just spiced things up a bit. The first time I slipped one of my hands out of the hand cuffs which I'm pretty sure I may have dislocated something because the popping sound my hand made was unsettling but the pain that came after it was almost the opposite. It created something to take my mind of this weird deep raging tingling I had in my veins. The other two times I broke them and it was surprising how weak the chain in-between my wrists were.

After another 30 minutes I couldn't cope anymore. "Take your fucking time lady why don't you. I don't have all day to sit here and listen to all you chatter on about crimes I didn't do!" I screamed as the rage consumed me and I stood up but I was quickly stopped by the guards and approached by that old lady I saw yesterday. My vision went all twirly and my hearing fell silent. The next thing I knew I was in this weird clinically room but It looked like a death room.