Still self harming to trt and cope with everyday life sometimes I just wish I wasnt here anymore because all I get is voices telling mw to end my life everyday they get harder and harder to cope woth each day sometimes I wounder why I am still here after everything my dad has put me through I still want to give him another chance I don't know why I am giving him another chance after everything he's put me through theses past 3 years but I've made the biggest decision I've had to make in my inter life im not going back to live with my dad and brother because I don't want to go back to the way I was I'm slowly getting better but it still hard but I some how cope with everything happening.
My dad and brother don't know I'm not going back home yet and nither does my social worker because she hasn't got back to my foster carer which isn't good when the LAC review is less than a month away so my dad needs to know before then because I don't want to be the one who has to tell him that I ain't coming back home since all he talks about is me going home and how things wil be different in my option is complete BULSHIT in my eyes he will never change the way he is and im being honest about that as well. What he says and what he does are two different things. Cant believe how far I have come within 2 months I've found my smile and sometimes its fake sometimes it real I forget most of the time beacuse a fake smile seems real to me but I think it's finally real again thanks to my wonderful foster carers they have helped me find that smile again.
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My life
Teen Fictionmy life has been hard since 2012 when my mum died I've lost 3 other close family mem since then I try to cope and be strong but it is hard still I don't talk about how I feek anymore since I have gone back into my hell again which I know isn't good...
