My life

My life part 44

It's been awhile since I last updated this story and I guess it's time to tell you all what's been going in my life since January.
In February I finally decided that it was time to shut my dad out of my life and I've not seen him since. I spoke to him last month and it was a bad idea because he told me "I don't care about you."
I also found out in February that ex boyfriend got away with it the police didn't do fuck all about it because he denied it and I went through all the hurt, flashbacks, nightmares and being scared to go out of the house for no reason at all because he got away with raping me.

In March I stopped cutting and I'm now 73 days clean and I will admit it's hard to not do it but I'm glad to have my best friend Matt standing by my side. Messaging me and ringing me to see if I'm okay and meeting up with me just to make sure I'm safe. I honestly don't know what I would do without him in my life he's been my life saver for the past few months.

Nothing really happened in April to be honest I don't think. But I finally don't have to go to CAMHS to see my psychiatrist so yay 🎉🎉

We're now in May and it's been a bumpy road to be honest. 09/05/17 I found out that one of my uncles died and it was a shock to the system then on 15/05/17 I found out how he died, he had lung cancer for 2 years and in January he got told he only had 6 months to live but he didn't make it that far. I never knew he had cancer 😢

I only have 5 weeks left at college and I'm going to miss seeing my friends in September since I won't be in the same part of college I am in now and I'm honestly dreading it so much because I know my anxiety will get a lot worse than it already is.

I turn 18 in 3 months and everything is going to get a hell of a lot harder than they are right now and I don't know how I'll be able to cope with it all happening all at once. But I'll be saying goodbye to my social worker finally. I like her but she gets on my nerves a lot.

I'll update on 23/05/17