My life

my life part 22

8/6/2015

Went and had my lesson with my tutor emma and did some work then went back home then I went to my auntie janes and had a laugh and a talk about things and played with my little baby cousin ellie-mae and made her smile and then I went back home.

9/6/2015

Went to my lesson with my tutor nick and did some maths and English which was so boring as hell!!!! Then I went to my uncle mark and pauls and talked and had a laugh and then I went back home.

10/6/2015

Went to my lesson with my tutor emma and then I had drama club which was fun but didn't really do anything because I wasn't in the mood that day because had some problems on my mind at the time.

11/6/2015

I went to Newark for my bereavement counselling and opened uo about a lot of things and but my foster careers had to know about it because my counselor was concerned about my safety because I was 75% that I wanted to end my life so she had to inform my foster careers about it so they had to contact my psychiatrist and tell her then they contacted my social worker about it as well.

12/6/2015

I went to college had pizza and had a bit of a laugh and said goodbye since it was the last day of the course which was a bit sad because I liked to go and I made some friends as well.

13/6/2015

I went to the mill where foster children go and you do different activities I did art and crafts for the first part then baking in the afternoon I made a friend called ella she seems really nice.

14/6/2015

I went to my dads went to morrisons then came back to dads had some dinner then went over to paul and leannes and spoke to them about things and they told me things about dad. I really like seeing paul and Leanne they make me laugh and smile which makes me happy.

15/6/2015

Ive had my lesson with emma and I made a cake and had a talk to her about things and she kind of understands but I'm hoping she don't tell karen about what we talked about because I don't want karen to moan at me about it because I can't cope with everything at the moment it's all getting to much to cope with and it's putting to much pressure on me as well with everything happening at once meaning the LAC review on Wednesday, counselling on Thursday and mental health on friday its to much to deal with and I don't know what to do anymore.

I just want to give up with everything and life and living its all to much and I don't know what to do anymore its like I can't carry on anymore thats how it feels for me now and people want me to carry on but I don't think I can anymore.