Drama Queen // Otto Hightower // Thea Queen

28. Hideous Monster

"Drama, your mummy is here." Tommy remarked popping his head in.

"Joy." Thea grumbled getting up, she looked a mess. She didnt remember the last time she bathed or brushed her hair. Her dress was a mess, her skin was oily, hell she wasnt even earing shoes. 

"You just had a baby, dont be too hard on yourself." Tommy requested when he saw her hesitate. 

"Easier said than done." Thea corrected softly. 

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Thea, as awful as it sounded wanted to do as her mother said, wanted to make her happy. Even though Moira was awful and made Thea hate every bit of herself. She wanted to be a good daughter. Because what daughter didnt want the love and approval from their mother.

Moira visited old town once the baby was born she sneered at Theas weight gain. Her appearance, her clothes, she criticized every little thing about Thea but it was amplified. 

"I just had a baby." Thea reminded her.

"Yes and now you need to lose all the extra weight. If you ate properly while you were pregnant this wouldnt happen." Moira hissed.

"Its not... I'm not... this isnt-" Thea didnt even know what to say, had she truly forgotten everything about being pregnant. 

"And are you not keeping cleanly? Gods Theadora look at your hair!" Moira practically growled her disgust. "Your husband will never want you again. You need to strengthen the line, he will not want you if you look like this."

"He understands that I have just had a baby." Thea corrected. "I dont want another."  Moira tsked. 

"Theadora you are a mess, he is going to find a lover and leave you to fend for yourself and he already isnt a great match anymore. If he throws you aside what man would take you?" Moira demanded. 

"Then I just finger fuck myself I suppose." Thea said it before she thought to stop, thought to slam her lips closed and bite her tongue. 

"Theadora!" Moira shouted appalled. "Gods this is-"

"Charlotte." Thea cut in. "My daughter. In case you wanted to know." Moira stared back at her. "She's perfect. But I'm... being a new mother is hard. I'm... stressed and tired and... I focus on her and her needs. What I need comes second. I'm trying to be a good mum."

"Charlotte." Moira repeated. She let out a slow breath. "Are you living in a hobble? No servants? That can tend to the babe while you handle yourself."

"Lottie likes me best.'' Thea corrected. 

"Lottie? Gods, you had to ruin a good name." Moira hissed. 

"I didnt ruin anything, she's my daughter." Thea reminded her. 

"This will not do. Get cleaned up. I can barely look at you- GODS THEA!" Moira shouted. "Where are your shoes?" 

"I..." Thea whimpered but Moira was stomping down the hall. 

Thea wanted to please her mother, wanted her mother to love her. Wanted to do as she said. Otto hated to see the similarities between himself and Moira. Sure Moira was loud and direct and mean. But Thea still wanted to do her proud. Alicent didnt want to be queen and yet because he requested it, Alicent did as he asked. It made him feel like an awful father. Knowing Thea's hatred of her own mother made him think that Alicent might hate him too. But Alicent had cried, saying she didnt want him to go. Just as Thea cried now as Moira stomped off disappointed. 

"Thea, what did she say?" Otto questioned moving to her. 

"Basically that I'm a hideous monster." Thea rasped as she marched in the opposite direction. 

Thea curled into bed but Moira groaned. Commanding the staff at Old town. She waved an impatient hand and thea felt like a child again. Moira's huffs of disapproval, the grumble of distaste, but Thea sat still in the tub. 

Washed, hair trimmed, thighs and waist measured, another cluck of disapproval. Lottie whined and Moira slapped at Thea's hand. 

"Let the maids get her." Moira sneered. Thea's eyes shifted back and forth as little Lotties cries grew. "Leave her." Moira demanded slapping at her hand again. "She is not your concern." 

"Yes she is. She is my daughter and that means something to me." Thea corrected as she pushed past. Lottie was still crying even though Otto was trying his best. But little tears welled in her eyes as she wailed out. 

"It's okay, daddys got you." Otto said softly but Lottie didnt want anyone but Thea. "Please, please, please, my dear girl." Otto coed Thea stared back at them. "Let mama be impressed that I can do this." Lottie saw Thea over Ottos shoulder and stopped crying. "Yes, thats better... thank you... see we can do this." Lottie grumbled out reaching for Thea, then he turned around. "And here I thought she loved me."

"She does." Thea agreed taking LOttie from him. "She's just a mama's girl, I know it was a shock even to me."