Versailles Series Book 7: The Ballerina [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 32

Flashback...

=== A L E X A N D R I A ===

I waited for Miggy to come back. He was outside for hours. Gabi na ito nang bumalik.

I stood up. I waited for him at the living room. He left his phone too so it was useless to call him. I wanted to hug him and say I'm sorry.

"Miggy..."

May nilabas itong kahita sa bulsa nito. The velvet cover indicated what was inside it. He used to say he will save up for it kasi hindi pa sapat ang savings nito para mabili iyon. No....

"I am giving you a choice right now, Alexandria." He opened the box revealing a very beautiful ring. "Marry me. Choose me. I promise you...I'll make you happy. I'll give you anything I can..." He knelt in front of me. I don't know what's left to be broken inside me. I can't stand seeing him like this. "Marry me, Alexandria. You can still be a ballerina here. You're one of the best ones out here. Just please...don't leave me. Don't leave me now...I love you so much..."

I knelt down until I can see his face. I wiped his tears even as mine streamed down endlessly. I can't bear to see him like this. "I love you too, Miggy. I love you so much."

"Choose me...please...choose me. Huwag mo akong iwan...I need you. I can't lose you. Not this soon."

Hinawakan ko ang magkasalikop naming mga kamay. "I...I can't marry you, Miggy. I'm sorry... Sorry hindi ko pa kayang ibigay ang hinihingi mo. It has always been my dream, Miggy. Even before I met you."

"But you are my dream. We have plans, Alexandria. Akala ko ba pareho tayo ng mga plano? Ng mga pangarap? Bakit ngayon parang hindi na? Parang hindi na ako kasama? Did you even think of me when you sent your application?"

I let out a few sobs. I can't help it. "I'm sorry..."

"Are you choosing Paris over me?"

All I can do was look at his tear stained face. "I'm sorry, Miggy."

"I don't need your sorry. I am asking for an answer." He said sternly. "Are you leaving me? Is that it?"

I slowly nodded.

Tumayo ito at pumunta sa kwarto. I can hear him cursing but I didn't have the strength to stand. I want to ease him of all the pain I am causing him now. I heard him looking for something before walking out of the bedroom.

Nang makita ko itong palabas nanaman ay doon ako nagkalakas ng loob na habulin ito. Niyakap ko ito sa likod bago pa man nito mapihit ang hawakan ng pinto.

"I've never been betrayed this much, Alexandria. It can be anybody I don't fucking care. But you? You're my weakest spot. Wala akong minahal ng tulad ng pagmamahal ko sa iyo. I wish I can support you in your dream. You know I will support you if you only fucking told me. But you left me out of it. I'm blindsided. And what, you're giving me a few weeks to come into terms that you won't be here anymore? That I won't see you in person anymore? You know that when you leave me, you're taking my happiness and my heart away with you. And you expect me to be okay with that?" Huminga ito ng malalim. "Ayokong sabihin mong hindi kita binigyan ng pagpipilian. I am hurt as it is. Now I am asking you, one last time. If you choose me, stay here until I get back. Otherwise, we're done. You can get your things and leave this place. You have until morning."

Kinalas nito ang mga kamay ko bago lumabas ng unit.

Matagal na siyang nakaalis pero nakatayo pa rin ako roon. I don't know what to do next. Miggy is slipping away from me. Kahit na anong gawin ko ngayon, hindi ko na mabubura ang katotohanang nasaktan ko ito.

I picked up the acceptance letter and read it like its my first time. Katabi niyon ang singsing na pinakita sa akin ni Miggy. It was a very beautiful ring. I remember that. May isang pagkakataon na namamasyal kami sa mall at napagkatuwaan naming tumingin ng singsing. He asked me what kind of ring do I like if ever he proposes.

He remembered...

Hinaplos ko iyon pero hindi ko sinuot. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve Miggy.

Sinimulan ko na ang pag-empake. I don't have much here lalo na at kailan lang naman ako tumira rito.

Tinignan ko ang picture namin na nasa sala. Ako ang nagpumilit na maglagay niyon sa living room. Yearly naming papalitan dapat iyon. I smiled sadly. We won't be changing it this year and maybe in the next years that will come.

Nilabas ko ang phone ko.

"Hoy gaga alam mo ba kung anong oras na? Siguraduhin mong emergency ito ha." Tuloy-tuloy na sabi ni Agatha.

"Miggy saw the letter, Agatha. I don't think I can fix this....he's breaking up with me." Napahikbi ako sa huling salita na binitiwan ko.

Natahimik saglit si Agatha bago nagsalita. "Sige susunduin kita diyan. Huwag ka ng umiyak."

Habang sakay ng sasakyan ni Agatha, walang patid ang pag-iyak ko. I knew I already lost him. I tried calling him. I just want to know that he's okay. He wasn't answering me.

"Give him time...hmm? He needs it, Ria."

I just nodded. I slept in Agatha's unit for a week before I had to go home to my parents. Maging ang mga ito ay nagulat sa desisyon ko.

"Sana ay hindi mo naman kami binigla anak. Paano iyan, ilang linggo na lang at lilipad ka na."

Nakayuko ako habang nagsasalita si Mama. "Sorry po Mama."

"Anong sabi ni Juan Miguel? Alam na rin ba niya ito?"

Just the sound of his name brought me tears. Hindi pa rin nito sinasagot ang tawag ko. Hindi rin ito umuuwi sa condo sa tuwing nag-aabang ako roon. Nang sinubukan kong tumawag sa mga kapatid nito ay hindi rin nito gustong makipag-usap sa akin.

"Wala na po kami, Ma."

My hands were fisted together on my lap as if that's helping me control my emotions. napa-angat lang ako ng tingin nang hawakan iyon ni Mama.

"Nasaktan ko po siya, Mama. Hindi ko naman po sinasadya." Humikbi ako sa balikat ni Mama. "Ayoko siyang mawala, Ma. Mahal na mahal ko po siya. pero ayaw na po niya akong kausapin. Kasalanan ko po ang lahat."

My mom patiently caressed my back to help soothe me. I was already crying inconsolably.

When I got my flight details, sinend ko iyon kay Miggy.

I know you may not even read this. I just want you to know that I am flying out on Friday, 9PM. I'd still want to see you, Miggy. I love you. I miss you so much.

The date came at hindi pa ako pumasok hanggang tawagin na kami mag-board. Agatha was literally dragging me. Umasa pa talaga ako na darating siya. Sa sobrang sakit na naidulot ko rito, I don't even have the right to talk to him or message him at all.

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