The light in my darkness ✅

🌕CHAPTER 18🌑

Third person's point of view

His head spun and he staggered, except this time Volkan caught him.

Akim rushed to the side too, it took all his mental health not to push her aside, not to crack her head against the railing. The images of blood in his mind became metabolic in his mouth.

Oh no, he didn't hate her, maybe not when he is sober. She was just too much for his drunk mind to handle.

"Get away from me," He said words so slowly but with confidence.

"Volkan get him some water," Akim came towards him holding his face, and images of them flashes through his mind. They were good together, the couple everyone wanted to be. Then boom... Akim was a lie, all of her was.

She was paid to do all of those, even though she was a spy in his life, someone to open his heart, she broke him and yet still he didn't step away from her fully. She twisted his mind. He switches to men. He became gay, and could no longer look at a woman, yet still, he hasn't even chased relationships.

Could you call a one-time thing gay? Yes? No? Maybe so.

But it wasn't him, was it? He tried to tell himself otherwise, that he was gay. That could calm him down. He was lying to himself, his masculinity is too high for that.

"I'm sorry, I hmm, I shouldn't have touched you like that," Akim said, who had her palms on his face.

"No, no it's alright, maybe I needed that."

Here he goes again with the need for closure.

She kissed him, in a swift moment. Her soft lips, those soft lips kissed his. Again.
Then she did something that surprised him. She steps back.

She turned around and there was Volkan with the water. He passed her as if she was invisible. He ignores her calling as if he is deaf.

In that same moment, Akim realizes that she no longer has those feelings for Talat, everything she has been feeling was guilt and longing for something to happen. Not only that she has a deep feeling that it's now her turn to chase Volkan.

Caroline's point of view

I took a deep breath and wipe my tears, walking into the school.

I pull the hoodie from my head and walked straight ahead. I stopped at an open room and Mrs. Red was dressing in all blue today.

"Hello, Mrs. Red, could you please show me-"

"She is right next door, walk straight along."

I nod my head and followed her directions.

"Matilda?"

She looked up and stood in a hurry. Her jaw was grim but tears were evident on her cheeks. She is crying out for help.

"oh my god," I said and hugged her to me.

"I- couldn't say anything- I-I -he- he said if I- tell he -he'll kill you!"

She stammered and cry, her body shook, and she held me tight and hiccup away.

"Pauline know- knows him. The same -"

"Shhhhh, am alive now, it's okay. Shhhhh," I couldn't stop myself from crying silently. I put the pieces together and my heart melts for her. She has been through a lot.

"I love you. I LOVE you," I kissed the top of her head and took up her bag.

"I love you more."

"Well, I love you more than your more."

"Well, I love you more than my more and your more put together," She wiped her tears and fold her arms.

I grin, I smiled and then I laugh.

"You are my strength, so I guess I love you more than you love me."

"Is this a contest?" She took my hand and we walk out of there.

"Well if you can gather more love for me then yes, it's a contest."

"But, you really don't know much I love you, Caroline," There goes the soft voice.

"Okay fine, we both love each other in our way. Okay?"

"Okay then. Can I see Simon today?"

"Do you like Simon? " We arrived on the street side. I was about to stop a cab and head back to the hotel, with a much lighter shoulder.

"No, No, I don't," She hid her face under my hands.

"You are a blushing fool now," I giggled.

"No, am naaaaaat. But do you like Talat?"

What the hell?

Talat's point of view

"Oğlum. Beni duyabiliyor musun?"

"Bunu kendine yaptığına inanamıyorum."

I groaned.  I open my eyes and Grandmother sat on the edge of my bed.
Everything comes back to my head. It's so embarrassing.

"Stop worrying, am fine."

"I made something for you to eat, you will not be one hundred percent fine if you don't eat it."

I groan and sat up on the bed.

"You have been trying to get me fat but it's not working," I said, teasing.

She got up with a smile on her face, one that always warm my heart. This woman will never know how much I love her. I must say she is the only one I love deeply.

" Here is your favorite."

She set a plate in my hand, a plate that holds: slices of cucumbers, fresh tomato slices, sauce, baked bread, and fresh cheese.

Somehow I forgot my problems, or should I say I push them at the back of my head.

"You know you didn't have to do this right?"

"Oh yes, I had to, you haven't cooked a meal since you got back, have you?"

"Oh, well I hum-"

"Mhmm, I want everything in your stomach when I got back ."

"Fine."

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After eating, showering, and avoiding looking at Akim. I remembered my real problems.

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I'm not fluent in Turkish, but I love the culture that's my reason for making Talat a part of that culture.