Her

34

Adriana

After that drunk confession and drunk moment of Sebastian I was so engrossed in him that I absolutely forgot about work.

You are not like this. Work was always your first priority. Love, relationship, things like these, they don't exist. You were not like this. Attractive towards the man. Like. Hell I couldn't even like myself. How am I supposed to like him? I don't know why I said that I like him and I need some time. But whenever I am around him I guess I lost my mind.

I kissed him? Fuck what the hell was I thinking? Does he also likes me? Or its just pity? I don't know. I know nothing when it concerns Sebastian. Fuck I feel like I am that teenage girl who have a crush on man. Yeah he is handsome, caring, respectful. What else more should I ask for?

Nothing.

He is perfect. He is literally the best man I have ever seen in my life. He is flawless and ideal man. He is everything one would want.

But I am not. I am far from perfect. I am the girl who is stuck in her own fifteen year old body, soul, mind. I am not worthy of him. And the worst part whatever I think, I do in the end I am still all my heads over him.

How can I change so much just for a man I met months ago? How can I let all side just for the glimpse from him?How? How? How?

But I have to focus. Focus on my work, my missions and my goals first. Love will wait, strives will not.

And just like that I am again on my desk waiting for someone to finish my next task. Earlier I called Caroline.

She is back. She took my advice and currently seeing a psychiatrist. She is not at her best right now but not at her worst. There are some people who are there for her. She spends her daytime here and then Blake would come and pick her from work.

I am glad to know that she is safe with him. I know. I am sure he will protect her with his life. He w--

I was cut off my thoughts when there was a knock in my door. I lean back in my chair and fold my hands placing them on handrest.

"Come in."

Glancing from a gap of the door Ivy entered the office. Taking steady steps she closes the door and carefully sits down in front of me.

"Mam!"

I nodded my head at her and taking a file from a drawer I handed it to her.

"All you need for this case is in this file. Make sure to keep it confidential. And if you have any doubt call me or
Mr. Matteo."

She nods her head in understanding manner and standing up she walks to the door. I watch her as she stops in the track and turned around with the
file in her hands.

I give her a look that says 'if you forget something.'

"I have a question ma'am."

"Go ahead."

"Rocco has a daughter, right?"

I narrow my eyes and bend forward resting my both previously folded hands on the desk.

"Yeah. What about her?"

She sighed softly and comes up to me.

"She gives me bad vibes."

"Bad vibes?"

"I mean I saw her yesterday near the mall talking with somebody. The person was wearing a black hoodie. So I didn't see his face. I think she is upto something."

I prompt at her.

"Don't bother her. Let her do whatever she wants. She is not important right now. Our main concern is him."

"Off course mam."

"That's it then."

Shaking her head she left. Dropping the pen from my hands I rotate in my seat and sighing I watched outside the floor to ceiling glass window. It was still afternoon but felt like some years passed.

Some years since you meet Sebastian.

Yeah.

Yeah?

What?

What? You just said that you miss him.

I didn't say that.

I you meant that.

No.

Yeah.

Fuck off.

After what I feel like twenty minutes later I heard the opening of door and come in my view Sebastian.

I looked at him and smiled. He smiled and bent down to kiss me. I kissed him back instantly. He dropped to my knees and placed his palms on my cheeks.

They are warm. It was like I am sitting by the pool in the winter and someone places shawl around my body.

I looked at him again. There was love in both of our eyes. Affection was clear on both of our sides.

We smiled at each other widely.

"I love you," he said that and me being me. I quickly melt down in his arms and hug him. Closing my eyes I rest my head on his shoulder.

"I love you Sebastian."

I hear his heart stop for seconds and instantly speed up. He hugged me tightly and I just lay there knowing it was my safe and only place.

I again opened my eyes to see the bright sky in front of me.

Dream.

It was a dream.

Dream of him.

Fuck it felt real. Not dream. Like he was really here to take me in his arms and capture me in that moment. Like he has possessed me to drive to him. Mentally and physically.

Sighing I sit up straight and stretched my hands above my head.

I turned to desk and taking phone in my hand I look at time to see that it was 4.37pm.

Tiredly standing up I entered the personalized washroom on my floor and freshing up, completing and signing some files I left the office.