Misfit toys

Life

I just want to sleep, a coma would be nice Or amnesia, anything just to get rid of this these thoughts the whisper in mind, did he rape my mind too ?
~ Laurin Halse Anderson

Riley p.o.v
I woke up in the hospital room with Burns covering my arm and legs in a little bit of my shoulder. My heart was beating fast as I could move I felt like I was suffocating the wall were closing in on me and I felt lifeless somewhat wished I died out there on the field " hey sweetheart" I can't really focus on the face That was talking to me but your sweet voice wouldn't mistake it. " mom?" It sounded more like a question as I tried to move my arm but the pain Took over my body. " Riley don't move!" She said as she light pushing back down she looked at me with those gentle blue eye that much pain written in them somewhat matching mine " Riley what was you thinking you could've died tonight Riley this have to stop what is going on " hi voice was shaky as you can tell she was scared scared for me scared that the world will take her angel way scared that the precious gift that God gave her could've been gone tonight and to her her fears were the size of a mountain. " I would say sorry but somehow I wish I was dead then I wouldn't have to deal with this is hurt building up in my heart I'm not perfect I'm not a little girl you once loved" I felt the tears well up in my eyes bit my lip hard enough to break the skin is the little blood spill out. " They rape me mama Ryan and his friend took turn with me like I was just a toy like I was nothing like I was worthless and he claimed to love me mother I think trying scrub the dirty feeling off but I just can't wash it off I can't no matter what I do I thought if I burned I can burn the ugly truth out of me rip the memory up maybe I can be okay maybe another night I could've been fine because maybe I wouldn't be here in the world when you remember my name"