Misfit toys

First time

Maya
We stumbled into his room, as Farkle hand still have the bottle clutching his hand as he took one more sip right before kissing me and grab my thighs and lifting me up against the wall without breaking the kiss he basically ripped my dress right before he carry me over to the bed and then he climbs on top of me kissing my neck and my body tensed lip made his way down my  quivering body and I found my eyes wandering around the room as the thought of losing my virginity seem to horrify and frightens to me. I never knew someone can be rough but generally the same time, his hand dance alone as his lip following cause let out moan as make sure to kiss every spot but for some reason I missed his lips on mine's he made his way inside of me he went slow kissing me, I couldn't control whimper from pain and he stop for second. " are you okay " he said softly, in my head I was thinking yes, you're hurting please get off me but my mouth completely said different thing " no keep going." I kissed him again trying to ignore the pain, and after a while the pain fade away and somewhat enjoyed it. I forgot about all the things that was going on around me and just got lost in him, running my hand through there is light brown hair, i'm praying to God that this never ends. After what like forever, it was just over we both lay there in the bed not knowing " um " he started to say as he looked around his room " what do we do now?" He finally whisper and I froze I couldn't think of anything to word that can describe how I felt for this boy knew my whole life, but now is different he looks different to me in my head, I found myself feeling things that I'm never felt before wishing that he didn't leave but knowing that we couldn't be. " can we just forget this ever happened because if Riley, she would freak and plus-" I stopped because I didn't know what to say else . " you're completely right it was a mistake Maya, we're just better off as friends" he said and I got out his bed, i'm a shattered for the reality that you never been more than just friends " do have t-shirt and sweats I can wash and bring back" I says I picked up ruined dress and he quickly nod his head as he walked over to the closet I looked around the room that haven't changed much since we were kids there were comics books on the dresser and poster of his favorite bands cover on the walls, and his book of most  famous dictators resting on The computer desk in the computer light over shining over a picture of him and his dad at Disneyland last year. " here" he said causing me to jump " sorry" he says he handing me the clothes I quickly put them on. " promise me you'll always be best friends" I whisper as I stared the ground he walked over to me and made me look at him " Best friends no matter what" he said to me I could help the smile growing " bye dork Sauce " I said as I punched him in the shoulder and right before I climb out the window " I think you're forgetting something " I looked down, maybe he thought that we can be more maybe she wanted me the way I want him but was it a turn back to him and he had my boots and his him and realized I didn't have my shoes on " oh right thank" I says I grabbed my boots from him and climb out the window back into the cold wet streets of New York.