Misfit toys

Unsteady

If it doesn't break your heart then it isn't love
~ Unknown
Lucas p.o.v
I had just pick riley up from the hospital. She stared out window deep though trying and i wonder what going mind as phone kept going off but she ignored the call and throw out the window. " what the hell Riley!" I hissed but she just turn radio up trying tune me out. I just shook my head as she place her sunglass trying to tune the world around as play with my basketball that from passages seat floor " We Can we go play basketball " she said with no emotion as stare at the black and white basketball " you sure don't wanna go home to your family-" I start to said and she cut me off " Lucas, act like a pussy know they ask you to take me home but I don't want to go well not just yet I want to go play basketball" she rise her voice at me " okay " I simple as I turn the car around head to back as she start back out the window but every time got a change I stole a look at as chocolate brown blow in wind and The tears that fell down her cheek and Even the ones the fly out the window she wipe them off. When we find made at park and as she start to get out the car and her fill with fear as body shook just grab wrist " what are you do" i hissed under her breaths and I quickly let go " nothing " I said before she hop out the car leave me speechless.

Riley p.o.v
My heart pounded against my chest as walk away from him wipe my burn cheek " riley, get yourself together, stop act crazy " I whisper before breath that didn't know was holding " Riley?" I heard Lucas call to me as walk close me but I didn't " okay 21 winner I got to buy pizza" I said as throw the ball into his chest cause you lose his breaths. " okay ladies got ball first " he said as bounce pass to then I did the same " okay then maybe should go first because you're a bitch" I joke and he rolled his eye " yeah yeah I just play ball okay " he said as trying block I push pass as cross him made knock him down before the shot. " please tell me you're not going easy on me?" I saw him stare me down in shock with a little anger written. " princess I wouldn't dream of it give me damn ball " he pick hisself off the ground and I gave him a genuine smile for about a second before trying to frown. You have me into the game and he already been on the ground more than 10 times and have those times because I hit him in the balls with the ball " what the fuck is your problem Riley" he said as he get off the floor and I just rolled my eyes " you can't take a hit I always knew you were nothing but biatch " I said as i walked away I quickly grabbed my arm "you act like a damn crazy person, what did I do?" I felt betrayed I felt like you lied to me and I felt like why he's got behind my back talking to my parents. " stop treating me like a damn baby stop checking in with my parents like I don't see you text my father every chance you get I'm not a damn baby your pussy my fucking best friend instead you acted like a bitch sucking up to my father you know that's not the way to get to me if that's what you think? " I said is I threw the ball in his chest and walk back to the car. " you know what Riley you're acting like a damn child so we're going to treat you like one, honestly I don't know why I did with you sometimes is everything that you bring stuff up on yourself I don't know what to do with you anymore" I heard him how after me but I ignored him as put the middle finger.

Lucas p.o.v
Love hate All seem to roll into each other, she Love me to she hates me she hates me to she loves me for some odd reason I crave it from her crave to be treated like shit because that's the only way she can love me. I watched as she walked away she looked beautiful the sunset and for some reason everything about her seemed to glow in darkness. I wanted to be everything she needed I want to be her protector I wanted to be your friend I wanted to be her lover I want to be her everything but somewhere along the line I became nothing to her . I was addicted to her but sadly to say she was like a drug she was a high that I didn't want to lose but when she was gone I felt like I had the shakes at that like I was lost without her but yet she felt fine at least that's the way she made it seem. She's no longer frail and innocent she edge that was sharp enough to cut you if you pushed her too far she explode with sarcasm to hide the pain cuss words to cut through you to make sure you didn't mess with her only so she can fall back into her empty little world where no one mattered. she didn't want to talk but everyone seem to want her to talk about it. As I look back to the car to think of the words to say to her I want to say the right ones because I hate it when she was mad at me. I got to the car she had her face stuck in a book I got in the car she looked up and then turn back her book. " The perks of being a wallflower, good book ?" I said as start the engine she didn't look up from the book she ignored me. " since she won I guess that all you pizza" finally close the book " i'm sorry I lost my appetite I just want to go home and get the hell away from you" she said and I just rolled my eyes I'm starting to use the crap she pulls " you're full of shit you know that you can push everyone away are you want because I was going to leave you by yourself and how that probably be easy seeing as you don't want to talk to anyone you want to act like everyone else to get you I'm not him I would never him I've always been there for you to stop treating me like I hurt you when all I ever did was love you" you close your eyes for second as cried I instantly was regrets because I never wanted to see tears roll down that pretty little face of hers. " I don't want you to love me what part don't! Can't love me because I don't love you I can't love you" she said she wiped away the tears and finally stared at me for the first time the whole day. " you're so damn perfect cowboy drives me insane you always want to be the moral compass you always want to do what's right but everyone you always look out for your friends sometime people are unsaveable " she said she let out a small laugh she shook her head drain the whole conversation as her eyes showed pain and I couldn't help give a bitter laugh because I realize she wasn't the same girl I met back in seventh grade who all she wanted to do was save her friends. " I remember that's all you wanted to do was save people, and sleep at night with something in your life is off-balance and something was wrong with your friends and now you're the one say people can't be saved, if you believe that then I don't know you I really don't and that scares me because you were the one person I thought I knew better than anyone the one person I can talk to about everything! who are you? " I said and I saw her think for second I saw her try to figure out what she was in her head because I didn't think she knew she was anymore. " on the definition of someone who's dead on inside Who doesn't fear anything because all she want to do is die so who am I I wouldn't begin to know " she left her words were cracked her laugh pure you can hear the rain smashing against the Windshield as the car was completely silent because no one knew what to say. " i'm imperfect mess and every time I try to clean up that mess I fall deeper inside of a depression I didn't even know I had but it happened way before the incident Ryan I think it happened the day I walked into high school." She ran her fingers through her hair before wiping away the tears the smile appear her face " I think it's just I don't want to be perfect anymore I don't want my parents to think of me of their perfect innocent daughter the naïve the dumb one the dimwit i'm a goofball everyone around me knows that no one takes me seriously I thought if I became a cheerleader i'll be feared like I was somebody and when Ryan took notice to me I felt-" she stop by second trying to find the right words I saw she's breaking down she told me the story. " having a upperclassman take notice to you was everything to me and he wasn't always this bad I mean he was an asshole from day one but he made me feel special and I needed that because I knew nothing was going anywhere with us I knew that from the moment we tried it back in seventh grade you were Mr. perfect and I was some loser you took pity on" shake her head as she wiped away the tears and she seem like she had a mountain full of tears she cried more than the river and she was vulnerable sat there without a word because I know she had to get off her chest and as we stopped in front of her apartment building finally catch my voice " I never took pity on you to be honest you make me want to change you and want to be better because back in Texas I raised hell I get in fights every other day until day I got expelled you know that story but honestly I love having you as a best friend and not having you at all I think that's why take so much stuff from you I think that's what even when you push me away I love you more that's what I promise I never let anyone hurt you" I stop for second The place to fingers and turned her face towards me. " to be all you ever need you I want to date me fine I'll continue to be your puppy dog until one day you get cave-in understand you have to work on yourself but all I want for you to be okay." I whisper to her and she turns away " bye Lucas " she whisper as she got the car she walked up to the front door before turning in looking back at me and then turned and walked in the house.