Misfit toys

Don't save me

Riley p.o.v
I toss and turn as dream rips me on a reality twisted fantasy, heart just kept pounding as I put the pillow over my head trying to muffed out the screens, " get out of my head please" I scream
Dream state
I sent in a court room everyone Eye glued to me approach the bench my palms are sweaty my heart was beating fast. A man in a black suit walked up to me stared me Straight in eye. " you asked, did you" words were harsh and I couldn't really read his face I was confused " ask for what" he let out a harsh raspy laugh as if I was joking. " wait are you asked me are you rape?," my heart sunk in the bottom of stomach stepped in " I object he badgering my daughter, he's being disrespectful are you really going to allow that Judge Mark " mother state as judge stared at me " cancel do you really have a point and not just trying to offend the young girl" finally got the courage to lose the words that was dug deep in my body " for someone to pin me down these guys didn't take no as an answer I didn't ask for the nightmares that happen at night I didn't ask for no one sympathy but if you were held down and consumer that slap, punch and as humiliated as then as tape The whole thing I was drugged I tried to kill myself and you think that asked you son of a bitch" i broke down and OutBust didn't go unnoticed. " mrs. Matthews another outburst like that and you will be out of the court" and it felt like everyone grew bigger in my heart throb with pain that I didn't understood. " we have witnesses say that she flirt with every guy there she thought of her body the short cheerleader uniform she slept with half the guys there so why was these two guys accused of rape she wanted it even if she said no and back of her mind she wanted it!" He Yelled at me trying to scare me is everyone in the room in the turn into zombies they looked at him as he screamed "slut slut slut" and I cried right there and stand ripped into piece " get out my head" I scream as everyone laughed at me.
Dream ending
I woke up in a cold sweat trying to piece together what was going on is the room was dark. " I got to get out of here" I whispered into the air as I got up in the bed. I grabbed my phone and the keys off the kitchen table as I tried to ignore the screen my mother was yell after me. I drove until I couldn't drive anymore as with every Mile I drove The tears fell harder. I stopped I don't know gas station couple miles up from my apartment as I got out the car walk out Crisp breazy into the gas state straight to the liquor department he got 2 battles and brown liquor not really look what it was is the cashier look at me crazy slam my fake ID on the counter with a $ 50 bill give her a dirty look. Try to hurry up and give me my change " 25.00 Your change, come back again" she said as she give a fake quickly return one " yea sure " I said as walk out not getting to flip her the finger. I couldn't even get out the door quick enough of that pop the bottle open and placement between my lips as a sweet bitter taste  which burn the back of my throat before second to get rid of the nightmares that stuck in my head and before I knew at the bottle was gone you just empty glass bottle glued to my hand is it tears while down my eyes the tears marked the pain I just wouldn't go away. I grab my phone out of passage of car and dialed his number.
Lucas/riley  conversation
Lucas: it's 4 o'clock in the morning early what's up"
Riley: oh I didn't realize it was that late I can call you back in the morning"
Lucas: riley, are you crying? I'm on my way where are you?
Riley: Lucas I'm a slut!
Lucas: "where are you Riley "
Riley: I don't know really some place called m2m."
Lucas i'll be there in five minutes don't move Riley Elizabeth Matthews if you move I swear"
End of the conversation.
Lucas p.o.v
A little small sigh of The girl sleeping next to me, he wasn't Riley but she was replacement for the second removed hand, Around me. I grabbed a plain white shirt with throw some pajama pants and a pair of vans i'm was tripping every few steps and I got the house as I grab my keys. " Lucas " my mom called out as my hand touched the front door, " my friends in trouble I promise I'll be back" I said as it is a raced out the door now waiting for response The drive is long quiet as my mind raced but thought some bad some good but most hoping she was okay. Pulled up to the old convenient store it was run down and there were drug dealers parked right in front of the store and there was Riley sitting on her gray Volkswagen Beetle, The cigarette place in between her lip as I parked beside her. Got the car she pulled me into her arms before I knew it she was kissing me so much passion build up sexual frustration everything is pushing past her anger and she was spilling it all over me. When we finally put away we're trying to catch our breath but mines was caught in my throat is all I wanted was her lips against mine is again the sweet taste of perfection. My eyes traveled up and down her body she wore a tiny tank top with a pair of shorts and some flip-flops but you can taste the honey Brandy written all over her lips. " why do you have to stare at me" she whisper as I bit my lip " because you're beautiful your one-of-a-kind damaged the perfect and there's nothing quite like you I just don't know why you don't see it" she let out a bitter laugh trying to ignore my words, " I love how alcohol Seem to numb everything, somewhat is better than dying." I said is I watched her closely her eyes were bloodshot but she's been crying for hours is there a make up running down her face I was in a messy bun. " I guess is easy that way is easier to get dropped in to face your problems," I said is I let out a bitter laugh and she rolls her eyes. " hard to run away from your problems when you getting eaten alive by your nightmares I just want numbing moment where don't feel the pain when I don't hear the whispers you don't understand that Mr. perfect you're so fucking perfect" said as  grabbed the bottle out the car and places to her lips as I grabbed out of her hand " why do you do this to yourself your self-destructing Riley told me you were getting better," set and she just laughed at me " I lied. You know what shut up I don't say anything about the random girls you bring it out of your moms apartment you're going to be just like your father" she spat she snatched a bottle back almost to bring over, " that's low even for you my father was a coward and liar, he cheat my mother every chance he got terrible businessMan is he cheat a lot of people out my money, I'm not him" I said is my emotions start to get the better of me " whatever you say pretty boy, you're right you're nothing like him your spineless goody two shoes will never do anything spontaneous" she replied she poked my chest spelling alcohol on the ground as I grab that her hand and threw it against the wall as glass and liquor flew across the ground. " you're fucking crazy Riley I got out of my fucking bed to come i'm here for what you can treat him like crap like you're so fucking perfect I'm not the one sitting here getting drunk off my ass!" I yelled and she just laughed I'm faze " fuck you and ask you to come" she said and I just rolled my eyes if people start to stare at us but didn't matter because my eyes never left her brown ones trying to figure out what was she doing what was she thinking. " I love you the simple answer I can give you I'll jump in front of a bullet for you I would do whatever for you that's the problem you don't get it and don't know what I would do it I don't know why because you always seem to push me away" she slapped me as my cheek still stung she push make it's your car smashed her lips against mine. I can help you pull a close running my fingers down her back as it started to turn passionate not wanting to pull away for air she ran her fingers through my hair.as I life her up placing my hand on her Firm ass as she let out a small moan through kiss " love really like this but I can't " I stumbled over my words she was firmly on the ground " why do you have a tab of conscious why can't you sleep with me without, strings attached " she hissed at me and I couldn't really explain my finals because I want to her for the rest of my life " I don't want you to save me" she spurred  I kissed him on more time. " I can't be that guy I'm not Ryan I'm not gonna take advantage of you, I love you way too much to watch you self-destruct" I said as I pulled away and put her in to hug she cried on my shoulder.