Misfit toys

Love that unbreakable

If nothing saves us from death, at least love should save us from life
~ Pablo Neruda
Maya p.o.v
Heart was beating fast as I hit the intercom button " Who is it?" A man shot from the intercom it brought fear in my heart " hello Mr. Minkus it's Maya I was wondering if Farkle here sir " I said in my voice was a little bit shaky and without another word buzz me up The closer I got to his apartment The more my fears seems to rise I think it's because the last time I was here I realize something I realize I was in love with my best friend that I couldn't have him even if I wanted him. And I rub my tiny bump the seem to grow by the day, and then it hit me didn't know but how could he ignored me my calls and when he did call me because were short and I just missed his voice but I finally made it to the door, I Took a deep breath before knocking. " mrs & mr. Minkus " I said is I looked out of the ground but neither one of them pay me any attention they were too busy in there own life as Farkle father was out of the door the minute I walked in and his mother had a bottle of wine in her hand and a glass and other so I decided just walked to his room. This place is big enough to get lost in there was like 10 different rooms for only three people I was a lot but to be completely honest I think it was to keep from bumping into each other because none of them can stand each other. I finally made it to Farkle's room after about five minutes of walking and I do knocked at door. I can hear him cough as he walked to the door. When you open the door his eye widen was shock but his face looks sick skin pillar than usual his eyes were yellow look like he was lack of the fluid it was in his body. " farkle you don't look too good" I said he didn't say anything as he sat on the bed and my heart broke " well my dear I'm poster child of cancer right now and it's kicking my butt" he said started to cough again as back at his computer desk. " oh my God you didn't tell me why didn't you tell me you can tell me anything in the world why didn't you tell me" I started to freak out it's a tear start the bottom of my eyes as plop on the bed. " I haven't really told anyone I didn't want you guys to worry, I'm fine how's Riley my mothers freaking she won't let me leave out the house I would've went down and seen her yesterday" he said trying to change the subject but I couldn't stop staring at him the tears rolling down my eyes. " she's fine she's just going to say something really bad and we're all trying to figure it out but it's hard for me she tried to kill her self for Pete sake" I trail off trying to find the right words " you don't not tell me things like this Farkle Jason Minkus, what something would happen to you I love you I mean is a best friend but I don't want to lose you you're scaring me you and Riley are fucking scare me why can't you just tell me things and stop Keep me in the dark!" And my tears started to become a river hiccuping harder than ever my heart was beating fast or you just kneel down in front of me. " hey hey hey listen to me I'm fine I'm just sick that's why didn't want to tell you I didn't want to freak you out I mean aside from the chemo i'm fine and a slight cough Maya I'm not going anywhere." He said he looked at me those big blue eyes and is that for second hoping that that was true. " you promise because I need you" I said as grab his hand and his eye widen and tears formed in eye. " I'm going to be father " he whisper in air and I just nod my head " 3 month I tried to tell you every time I was on the phone with you but something stopped me I'm sorry just didn't come out you can hate me but whatever but I was scared and didn't want to lose my best friend and-" I started to ramble that was quickly lost my thought is he kissed me. " love you Maya, " he said to me as he wipe the tear aways for second nothing else mattered for second he seemed well he eye the sparkle with the thought

Riley.p.o.v
I sat there staring into space not wanting to talk this lady was badgering me she was going down my throat not going to stop. " i'm trying to help you let me help you tell me what happened that night" she can tell you that she pushed the video in my face of ryan and I it's a party in me falling all over the place and remember that I didn't remember none of it all I remember is that dark room in the screaming no " I can't help you I don't know anything I don't remember what part you don't understand!" I screamed and the nurse came in " sorry detective but you have to go you're upsetting the patient" the nurse step In but detective never took her eyes off me. " they held you down when you try to get up they hit you and they punch you and they rape you your piece of me like you were nothing are you going to let them get away with it if you don't tell me anything I can't help you and who are you trying to protect the people who didn't give a damn about you left scars who made protect them you your dumb then you!"
she pleaded with me to try to remember but I work so hard the block it out. "I want my mother can you get me my fucking mother, I don't want to talk anymore I just don't!" I start scream my heart rate started to go up the machines start going off " mrs. Westbourne you have to go" The nurse tried again but she was unsuccessful and my mother walked in " hey hey what going on " she said she looked around the room and everyone looked as you aggravated as the tears were running down my face. " ready to go home mama can you find some way for me to go home I don't want to be here anymore I'm not crazy I'm not and you can send me Every therapist you want I want to get the hell out of here I don't want to get away from her." I said is I threw a book at the wall and everyone looked at me like I was crazy I felt trapped in these four walls at that like I was dying in that moment I felt like life was suffocating me with dots and memories rushing back to The only thing I can remember with the dark room my screen is going on heard reality is it was my way to games he is in any given moment all he has to say was I was his girlfriend and got too drunk. It was an unwinnable battle so why fight it. " look I'm need exit my daughters room now before I saw you for trespassing" she stop for second she just threw her hands up and left.

3 hour later
I watch is my passing by sat in this room, My mother sleep in chair by bed my dad is restless down in the cafeteria getting another cup coffee and he took Auggie down there with him because auggie been afraid to leave my side for the last three days. " hey " I heard from the doorways I looked up and I couldn't help the smile to grow my face. " hey love bug" I joke try to keep a straight face " Came by yesterday but I just couldn't come in" he said as he walked in slowly I couldn't help but laugh everyone treated me like I was so fragile but at this point I felt like if anything else happened I was going to break. " don't have to be afraid to touch me even get close to me I'm fine I just had a setback I'm starting to have a lot of those these days just the lack of sleep the lack of being okay like of everything just seem to break me down you remember when it was simple." I say is my smile fell just thinking about it he's at the end of the bed. " yeah what it was just the four of us in the outside world it matter now felt like we all just separated me with my football you with cheerleading and-" he trailed off trying to find the right word " rape" he whisper so I'll put it out there I know everyone knows " you don't have sugarcoat anything for me I chose the wrong guy he let his friend write me why you join in on the action I have bad taste in men" I joked and he did laugh instead he just looked at me with his sad eyes which only made me a afraid to move. " well if I learned anything we love the wrong people because we think we deserve that love but honestly I think you deserve the world" He replied simply grab my hand " maybe you see something in me I don't see in myself but that's always been my problem I want to be like so bad i'm like a little puppy love me love me" joke trying to light the mood but it seems like my sense of humor if we can dark. " Lucas, I'm scared" I whisper to him he just lay down next to me ripping my hand had in his hand. " When it hurt look back and scare to look ahead, you can look beside you always be there for you" he said as he kiss my forehead as I cried for the first time truly cried let everything out.