Misfit toys

Like poison

And then we were kissing..... The space around us evaporated, and for a weird moment I rally like my body; this cancer-ruined thing I'd spent year dragging around suddenly seem worth the struggle,..
~ john green

Being sick is like poison coursing, through your body. I sat on my bathroom floor coughing is the tears roll down my eyes from lack of oxygen get into my lungs and the fluid building up. I run my fingers across the cold Green and black towels on the bathroom floor. I was dying slowly but I was Surely dying. I tried to put a brave face for my mother I tried to hold my hand even though I know she was scared my father didn't say much but you can see the worrying his eyes my sister was afraid for a little brother that she can look at me more than five seconds without crying and she was a strong out of all of us she never cried but I guess I just brought that out of her. Maya asking to spend the night here more often, she says it's because she hate sleeping alone she beg for me to hold her close she crying to my arms at night my son kicked every so often she fell asleep by slowly than all at once and I couldn't help the fell in love with her again every time she did that. I hate hurting the people I left I had to watch my family crumble under of the weight of something I couldn't control. I sat there watching the fault in our stars with The bowl of cereal in hand as I heard a knock on the door. Five minutes later maya appeared " get up We kidnapping you " she said she pulled me off the couch " Maya, what are you doing " asked her and she said nothing she forced me to get dress and Lucas stand by the door. " really don't you think I can get just on my own" she's smile at me as walk closer she walked over him after arms and my neck " I know I know I know I know but I just left and you undress the best peek ever had" she joke before she kiss me " you realize Lucas is standing right outside the door right" I whisper in her as I kiss her neck " which make it all the better he deserve it I've heard him and Riley have sex before I think this is all the more the payback. Jokes as we both laughed and she does it for my pants and go down on me " okay maya I knew there was something special about you" I joke she just ignore she knew how to get me excited because sex was off the table she felt like she was fat and she didn't like the thought but also didn't mind it And there was a knock on the door and she pulls away laughing " we busy come back" i yell out as she giggle " it's your mother, your grandma's downstairs so yeah you and Maya quit whatever you're doing and get down the stairs now " we both bust laugh as pull me up And she fix her dress, throw her in messy bun. I grabbed before she open the door " can borrow a kiss I promise I give it " I said as light push against way and kiss her turn passion " hey Farkle your grandma trying to hit on me can we go now" I hear Lucas from be hide door as we trying to catch our breaths as smile at me. " hey babe I got get my wallet, I meet you down " I said as kiss her one last time, She nod her head before leave the room. I broken down coughing with drop of blood hit the floor. I lean against bed to keep my balance as room start spin.

Maya p.o.v
I walk downstair still light from his kiss leave me with stupid grin as I rub my belly " Maya your look umm what the word I'm look for? Farkle granny said as hug me and rolled my eye " look like whale big fat pregnant whale " i replied and look shoot as she fake a smile " you gorgeous, you pull the fat whale look off " he replied and I just give her fake smile " it's always great to see you Mrs. Keiner, maybe I should go see what your grandsons doing I bet he would love to see you" I says I tried to ease my way back up the stairs " Maya, That okay I will get them" lucas said as run upstair and I rolled eye. "So big for 5 month just 16 and pregnant doesn't mean you have to let your go" she said as she walk away i make gesture of shot myself. " well i'm pregnant what is your excuse for being dropped it ugly" I mumble under my breath and I guess she has super hearing that she turned around " what honey" she said to me I just rented my teeth not going to say anything rude " I said you're looking precious as ever and just really agreeing with you how old are you now like 98." I fake smile before she can even say anything Lucas came running down the stairs. " call The ambulance now " The words are jumbled of my head as I ran up the stairs and seen farkle laying on the ground I got down on my knees next to him The room has batters the blood across the floor and is clean white floor you would kill me if I spelled anything on was Ruined, " i'm right here okay I love you please wake up"