Kamaiyah and Chris have been through the storm. Lost one another and found themselves right where they needed eachother. Kids, Divorce and Death couldn't keep them apart... but can they put that all behind them to build their forever? And will the g...
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It was our first night back in L.A. and to say I was bummed to be back would be an understatement. Paris was a dream come true and I didn't want it to end.
"You smell so good." Chris said with his head in my neck as we spooned in bed.
"It's a new magic body cream. I'm glad you like it." I said back, I couldn't hide my blush if I wanted to.
"Yeah, you always smell good though." He complimented again and I turned in his hold to look him in the face. He was tired and I could see it, but I still hadn't had a chance to speak to him about what I heard his dancers say at the club and I didn't want it to fester.
"Baby. I heard something I didn't like while we were in Paris, and I wanted to talk to you about it." I said as calmly as possible. I didn't want him to think I was mad or trying to argue, but I was upset and I wanted to be vulnerable, but not combative. He squinted slightly then sighed about to sit up and I patted him back down.
"While we were at the club, I went to the bathroom and overheard a conversation between two of your dancers. I don't know which, but they were talking smack about us being together being an act. I wasn't going to let it get to me because bitches talk crazy and I really don't give a damn what they think, but-" I cut myself off between my rambling before continuing.
"One of them said she used to dance for Normani and that she'd told her you and her weren't sleeping together till way into your relationship." I said, I didn't want to be harsh because I know the relationship was a touchy subject for him.
"...It just got me thinking like...Were you only so quick to jump in bed with me because you weren't sleeping with her at that time?" I asked and watched his eyes soften, he hadn't spoken the entire time but I knew the idea that his employees were talking his business in public was already driving him up the wall.
"That day we had sex after our argument, Chris you ain't even look at me- I felt like a piece of meat after you left, like you just saw me as a quick nut. I know- I know that isn't how you feel, but that made me feel like shit and knowing that might be why just makes me feel worse." I confessed and he sighed before running his hands through the side of my hair.
"You want me to be honest?" He said after a long deep sigh and I nodded.
"I never came over here with the intention for that night to happen, or the night after that. How I moved was solely based off how disappointed I was in my actions. I knew I was doing something so wrong, but I equally knew it was what I wanted. And I tried to drown it out. My heart and my body were with you, but my mind was just fucked up. I'm not going to lie, I was trying to fuck, and yes, part of that was because I wasn't getting it from my girl, but after that second time I knew it was more to it. That's why I came at you like I did, I just thought, sabotage. I couldn't be on good terms with you and just be platonic - I couldn't just let you go. But it was never a case of using you Kam, I love you, shit I might love you more than anything in the world. Every time we made love was special to me, regardless of the circumstances." He finished and I nodded slightly before leaning in to kiss him.
