Kamaiyah and Chris have been through the storm. Lost one another and found themselves right where they needed eachother. Kids, Divorce and Death couldn't keep them apart... but can they put that all behind them to build their forever? And will the g...
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"It's positive."
"Positive news - you're not pregnant." My Dr said fighting off a smile and I blew out the long breath i'd been holding.
Thank God.
"Now, I know you mentioned wanting to have a hysterectomy. I'm happy to give you one considering your medical history - but I must warn you once you do it, you can't go back." she informed and I smiled as I nodded.
"That sounds like just what i'm looking for. I'm 34 with 4 kids doc, my work here is done." I joked as I gathered myself to leave and she fanned me off.
"Okay. I'll have my assistant share some available dates along with all the info you need ahead of the procedure and I guess I'll see you then!" She said full of energy and we went back and forth in conversation for a minute before I headed out.
Chris hadn't said a word to me in over 4 days - After that morning in Toronto he went on to the next city without us even getting a chance to speak and me and the kids came home.
He had a three day stop in LA at the end of the week so I was hoping we could just speak then.
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"Hi babyyyyy." I said attempting to get us off on good vibes. I wasn't sure if he was still mad at me or really what he was thinking at all. I watched him lean down lifting Khris into his arms and blew kisses on her face and walked further into our living area to pick Khari before he even looked in my direction.
"What's up Kam?" He said once he'd sat with both of them in his lap.
"Nothing, i'm happy you're home, I missed you..." I responded when I realised he wasn't behaving like himself.
"You not happy to see me?" I quizzed trying to break the ice and he shrugged a little, still barely giving me his attention.
"I'm chilling." He responded barely looking up at me and I got tense feeling like I was walking on egg shells.
The entire day he stayed with the twins, played with them in the pool, waited on Zion and Nova to get in from school, cooked and hung with them - tucked them into bed and completely ignored any real conversation with me. Maybe he felt awkward still, but ignoring me sure as hell wasn't the answer.
"How have your shows been the past week?" I asked joining him on the couch and he tensed up when I sat close to him - so i scooted over slightly.
"They been aight." He said with his face in his cell and I sighed at how hard I was even having to work. He clearly was not trying to speak to me.
"I got a hotel for the night..." He said randomly and I twisted my brows.
"For what?" I asked and he sighed.
"Imma stay there the next few days till I leave Kam. I'll be back over to see the kids, but I can't stay here." He explained and I chuckled because he had to be joking.
"So you ignore me for over a week, come home, ignore me more and now you leaving? Catch me up Chris because i'm lost." I said completely over the way he was behaving and he sighed.
"I been trying to make sense of a lot. like a lot - Going back on the road just gave me some real clarity... And I think you're right." He said sitting forward now and I squinted.
"Right about what?" I quizzed and he shrugged shortly.
"Right about us maybe just calling it quits... I wanted us to work Kam, I thought I could put the shit that's happened to the back of my mind. Forgive you, like how you forgiven me in the past. But I can't, I don't feel it." He said plainly, still not looking back up at me and I nodded slowly.
"I'll always love and care about you Kam, and I'd do anything to make everything that happened the past 2 years different, but it's been a lot and I don't see how it's going to get any better." He explained and I shook my head into my hands.
"How can you say that Chris? we were just fine, trying to get back on track - we were good" I couldn't even cry at this point i was truly stunned.
"You were good Kam. You saw what you wanted to see like always. I can't give you half of me, it's not fair to you, to our kids. They don't deserve to grow up in an environment where their parents are unhappy. I've made mistakes - God knows I have, but the way I love you, the person I became to make you happy and comfortable and feel secure - I don't recognise that person. You really maybe being pregnant by another man... I can't live like that."
"I'm not pregnant. You would've known if you answered my calls. I told you it was a crutch it didn't mean anything! I don't want to be with nobody else. I said I was sorry." I said standing above him.
"I want you to be happy Kamaiyah, but I want my happiness too. And right now that happiness isn't in this marriage... I didn't say my vows to get divorced, but too much has happened." He said barely taking in what i'd just said.
This wasn't about me maybe being pregnant by somebody else, this was Chris punishing me - he was punishing me for cheating.
"You can keep the house, the cars, we can share custo-"
"Chris be fucking for real. You can't be serious right now. What are you saying?!" I said cutting him off and for a second I watched him shake his head before he burst up laughing.
"See now you know how it feel. I'm kidding Kam. You know I ain't going no where." He let out between laughs and I angrily wiped my tears before chucking my phone at him and he dodged me quickly still in a fit of laughter.
"You're an asshole." I said so worked up that I had to sit down to catch my breath.
"I wasn't lying. Being on the road really did get me thinking about a lot... I thought myself into oblivion - I thought of all the ways this shit could pan out ... and all of them ended with us together." He said with his hand in mine and I nodded up at him still unable to speak.
"I had to have a real conversation with myself Kam. About what our life would look like if you really were pregnant by someone else and if you wanted to have that child, for whatever reason. And you know what?" He posed and I nodded for him to continue.
"My heart told me i'd love you and that baby anyway... You're my best friend above anything Kam and we said for better or worse. I'll fight for this love till the day I die." He finished and he was teary now too.
"I'll never do that to you again Chris... I hope one day I can forgive myself for hurting you." I said from the bottom of my heart and he leaned forward to kiss me.
"I hope you'll forgive me, for everything." He said pulling back and stared at me for a while longer before biting down on his bottom lip.
"I know you lying" I said fighting off a smirk and his slick smile told me everything i needed to know, before he lifted me over his shoulder and smacked my butt.
"I really did get a hotel. 2 day Spa break, get your bags packed - my ma gone be here in a hour." He told me.
"Whattttt?!" I asked in shock and he nodded deadass.
"Yeah what i'm bout to do to you... We can't do with kids in the house." He said so seriously and I almost got scared. It had been way too long, we were going to have fun tonight.
