It's the end... (kidnapping story)

Chapter 37

Frank's POV:
What am I doing?! I look at an unconscious Alice on the floor as I back away. What have I done?!
Her heart is still beating and she's still breathing but she can't be awake. Alice... The only person who ever truly understood me and I knocked her out cold. I'm a monster. These voices are right, I have no purpose in this world. If not Alice or Gerard... Or Tony then who do I have?
I look outside the window, into the darkness. Kinda scary when there's only me and an unconscious girl in a dark room. I don't want to turn on the light though, what if I drown in all the light... What if I'm filled with darkness and the light burns me alive. I have a sudden fear of lights now, I feel kinda jumpy.
Alice cocks her head to the side as she stirs around and blinks slowly.
I feel the room lighten up.
"Alice!" I cheer as I hug her "I'm so sorry" I apologize as I squeeze her tightly.
Alice just gives me a confused look and rubs her head.
I help her up as she holds her hand on her head.
"What happened?" She asks me. I feel guilty as I turn away from her.
"I uhhh, I knocked you out... You were down for a while" I pause as she smiles at me.
"Yeah maybe I should've stayed down, my head feels like a drum kit" she jokes.
I feel her warm embrace as she cuddles me and whispers, she's so gental... So loving, so accepting of me... And it makes me sick!
"I understand, I shouldn't have stressed you like I did, I know you didn't want to talk, I'm sorry actually" Why on earth is Alice apologizing to me?!
I push her off me, she looks at me with a hurt expression.
"You just pity me, that's it isn't it?" I feel overcome with rage as I shout at her.
She backs into the wall and I can feel her fear as I push against her. This feels so right, but why...
Alice trys to struggle away from me but I won't let her, she shields her face and slides down the wall begging me not to hurt her.
I could hurt her... Maybe she would understand, but she would be just like Tony. She would cry, I've never wanted to see Alice cry but right now it was kind of tempting.
I lift Alice up on the wall and dig my knee into her stomach, her reaction wasn't what I expected at all. She almost screamed but for some reason she held it back, she just kinda groaned and I could see her tears travelling down her cheeks like rain on a window.
Now it feels wrong, she's not like Tony at all.
I immediately stop but I won't let her go, not yet.
She whimpers and holds her stomach for a while, I drove my knee into the stab mark. Psycho...
I've bruised and broken Alice but she won't leave me, she won't run away or scream at me, she's actually trying to understand me.
"Frank" she wheezes.
I feel myself shaking.
"Please Frank, I know this isn't you" her eyes are begging me as she clutches onto her stomach.
It makes me furious when they tell me I'm not myself. But it makes me want to prove that I am.
"Alice, just don't" I sigh as I pull myself off of the wall and off of her.
She searches my eyes desperately.
"Frank, you need help, I-I want to help you" she explains as she moves my bangs out of my face. I smile at her as I move her black bangs behind her ears, her green eyes are like perfect emeralds as she peers into my hazel eyes. She hugs me and looks deeply into my eyes. Don't do it frank! Gerard's caught you before! He'll catch you again. What if Tony caught us.
Alice interupts my thoughts as she plants a kiss on my cheek. A small but sweet peck. Is she trying to tease me.
I grin at Alice as I grab her and dip her, kissing her passionately.
It's like we make the perfect kiss together, like we're completely in sync. Alice looks into my eyes as I let her stay in my dipping motion. Millions of girls that I don't even know would kill to be in my arms like this, that's what I love about Alice, she's just so genuine.
She stares at me for a while until she puts her arms on my shoulders and pulls herself up, by this point we're extremely close to the bed. I could never forgive myself if I hurt Alice for my own pleasure so I let her slide out of my arms as she sat on the bed.
I sat down with her looking down as she moved her feet in kicking motions. She playfully kicked my foot and giggled. I naturally respond by kicking her foot harder, she laughs and I tickle her.
Pulling her feet up and yanking off her boots. She sqeals in protest.
"Not the feet, definitely not the feet" she tries to pull her feet away as I continue tickling her and laughing.
She finally laughs so loud that she decides to kick me in the face.
"How dare you" I gasp as she rubs my face gently.
"I need this you know" I gesture to my face as she gives me a guilty smile "oh that is it! You shall be tickled... To death!" I sentence her, her eyes widen as she tries to escape the bed but I've got her pinned down, there is no way she can avoid my tickle.
She giggles and laughs as she struggles but I continue tickling her.
She does a cute little snort as she pushes herself up against me laughing and squealing.
I finally decide to stop and she calms down as I get off her. She smiles at me and gives me another hug.
"Frank I love you" she coos as she snuggles up to me.
"I-I love you too Alice" I smile as I kiss her forehead.
I just don't want her to be the victim of my illness, I really don't want to hurt Alice like I hurt Tony and everyone else in my miserable, worthless life... But it will happen... Eventually.

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A/N
Okay seriously I am soooooo sorry about the random updates but sometimes I just can't write or the complete opposite where I have so much inspiration I just write nonstop. So new deal I'll just update when and if I update cause I just hate rushing chapters like I do and I'm sure you guys can tell when I've rushed them.
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