It's the end... (kidnapping story)

Chapter 44

Alice's POV:
I feel warm and safe with Frank. I know that sounds stupid considering his constant attempted murder but he's just misunderstood and he needs somebody who understands that. I'll just have to deal with the torture and suck it up, I need to help Frank... And I intend to do it. I'll just stay with him like this, in his arms until his next episode. A voice calls out to me.
“Alice!” He shouts. Gerard... But why? Does this mean he forgives me?
Tony is with Gerard, holding his hand. I glare at Gerard for a long time until he starts to look at me with a guilty expression and tries to grab his hand away but Tony won't let him.
“Frank!” Tony yells “what are you doing to Alice!?” She interrogates him.
“Ummm walking... Is that a crime?” He asks with an innocent smile. Tony glares at him for a while before responding coldly.
“No... But rape is”.
Frank lets me out of his arms as if he were a child putting a toy back that his mum wouldn't let him have. He smiles weakly at me and steps to the side, away from me and closer to the gutter.
Tony smiles and hugs me but I push her off. She looks heart broken but I don't care.
“Tony, just don't... Don't you see how much Frank is detached from reality already? He doesn't need you to torture him with the past!” I yell in a frustrated tone.
“The ‘past’ happened three days ago!” She yells in tears. I look over at Frank as he starts to panic and looks around with a paranoid expression, then he runs, he runs far and fast. I try to go after him but Gerard holds my arm.
“He needs to be alone” He smiles sadly. I want to help him but I don't know where he went.
Gerard hugs me and kisses my forehead.
“Alice, he'll be okay” he tries to convince me. I look at Gerard with tears running down my cheeks.
“Tony!” Gerard yells in a fatherly tone “go back to the truck” he orders. She walks off across the street and makes her way to the truck. The moment she's out of sight Gerard looks at me with a saddened expression.
“Frank... He... You love him don't you? You love him more than you love me... Don't you?” I can see his anger although he's trying to hide it. I wish I could answer him, is it possible I could be falling for both of you?
I look away and Gerard takes that as some sort of confirmation of his suspisions.
“I really do love you Alice, please!?” He yells with his emotions. I can't look at him... I can't face him.
“Gerard... I know you'll never forgive me but I need to be with Frank, he needs me! He needs me more than you do” I burst. Gerard stares blankly at me for a while and I can see his eyes watering, he's still so perfect... Why am I doing this to him?
“Then... Nothing ever mattered, it never meant anything to you... You've been going behind my back with Frank all this time, and I was just... Your second option” His eyes are demoralizing, like dark wells flooding with water. I want to stop his pain but I can't. It's all true, he deserves the truth.
“Besides, you and Tony must've been having fun...” I hint. Gerard's eyes start to spill tears.
“I don't care about Tony! I never have! I need you Alice, you're all I want, if I can't have you then I don't have anything” his beautiful brown eyes with a hint of maroon sparkle with tears.
“I love Frank, Gerard... I love him! Of course I love you, or I did. But right now Frank is in a lot of pain, and I need to be there with him to help him... To love him” I try to talk but my tone is shaky and I can feel my voice drowning in my tears. This hurts me more than it hurts you Gerard...
“No! I won't let you!” He yanks me into his arms and kisses me passionately, I feel his warm and wet cheeks against my face as he stops kissing me and leans against my face crying on me. I try to comfort him as he tightens his grip on me and cries harder.
“Please?! Don't leave, I need you!” He begs and pleas but my mind is made up, he would've found out eventually.
“I didn't want to keep this from you any longer Gerard, but now that you know... This is goodbye” I explain with a shameful and regretful tone.
“No! Shut up! Stop it! You don't mean that!” He yells with tears as he hugs me tighter, he will never let go will he? I feel his strong arms wrapping around me tighter and crushing me.
“Gerard! Gerard stop!” I scream as I push him away.
He stares at me with his waterfall of tears and his lip quivers slightly.
“Please don't leave me, I can change, I can be a better person!” he sounds like a movie character.
“Gerard... You haven't done anything, I made this choice on my own... It has nothing to do with you or even me, it has everything to do with Frank” I hold back my tears as he drops to his knees with his black fringe covering his face as his head drops down.
“There's nothing you can do Gerard... Goodbye” I finally bid him as I kiss his cheek but he grabs me and tries to tell me to stay. We sit together for a long period of time just crying, me trying to leave and Gerard begging me not to. This was a lot harder than it could've been. He won't let go.
“I've been a horrible, untrustworthy bitch of a girlfriend Gerard... Just leave me” I state as I stand up and he holds onto my leg trying to get me to stay, he doesn't even need to try he knows just as well as I do that he's stronger and I'm staying here until he gets what he wants. But Gerard isn't going to get what he wants because I refuse to give it to him.
“I'm sorry it had to end this way” I apologize as I get him off my leg.
“But I...” he pauses for a long time while looking up at me “Okay...” he sniffs and tries to wipe his eyes which makes this even more depressing. He gets up and starts to walk away dragging his feet along and sniffling. I'm so sorry Gerard...