It's the end... (kidnapping story)

Chapter 79

Frank's POV:
I feel the rain pierce my skin and the bile rising in my throat.
Alice was right.
I am a sick and selfish psycho.
Now even I know that.
But that was supposed to be me that died, not Gerard!
It's not like I forced him to be... Gerard.
Why did he care so much? Why should anyone care.
I guess now they know the truth about me.
I still need to be punished.
I start walking through the gloomy, rainy streets.
I have to find Jemma... I have to apologize.
I have to pay for this. Even if her husband beats the shit out of me.
I deserve it.
"But do you Frank, do you really?" The voices ask me.
"Yes I do" I reply.
They snicker.
I cry.
I break down and give in to them.
"I don't deserve any of this! I deserve to be normal like everybody else! I deserve to be given justice and control in my life" I say out loud again, many cars driving past me as I talk to the voices.
They all give me weird looks as I glare at them.
"They just don't understand you Frank, and anyone who doesn't understand you is against you, they're out to get you Frank, they want you put away somewhere" the voices inform me.
I nod and listen.
"Alice hates you Frank, right now she's planning to get you locked up" they try to persuade me.
I snap out of it and shake my head.
"No Alice was right, it was my fault, I was selfish... I didn't think about her or Gerard" I reply.
The voices laugh again.
"She doesn't care about you, nobody cares about you! Just think about what Mikey will say if you stick around and he finds out that you murdered his brother" they warn me.
They have a point.
Mikey will hate me.
I really like Mikey though... And I would hate to lose a friend like him.
Should I be depressed that Gerard's dead...
Probably.
But I don't have the ability to stay with my emotions.
Why can't I be like everyone else?!
I hate myself so much.
I know Alice hates me, I can't believe she said those horrible things about me... To me.
Alice was so sweet, I loved her too you know.
Gerard wasn't the only one.
I needed her just as much as I needed my medication.
I loved her and she turned on me, just like everyone else.
Fine Alice, be that way...
Who says I need you, who says I need anyone, maybe I'd like to die alone.
Alice could never love Gerard like I did anyway.
Ever.
Gerard and I had something special, I can't believe we threw it away because of some girl.
I needed a friend and Gerard needed some under age slut... Well sorta.
I know I shouldn't say that but it's not exactly an exaggeration.
I watch the different cars drive past me, speeding along the road.
I feel someone tap my shoulder.
When I turn around I see Alice.
Her face is pale, her arms are shaking and her eyes are filled with tears.
Here we go...
"Yes, I know it's my fault... I'm a horrible human being, yada yada yada" I turn to Alice and sarcastically repeat her words.
She seems guilty and she twiddles her thumbs, looking at the ground.
"I'm so sorry Frank, I know it's not your fault... I hope you can forgive me for the awful things I said".
I smile at her and she puts her hand on my shoulder.
"I was so angry and sad at the same time, and I took it all out on you" She explains.
I glare at her and quickly grab her wrist off my shoulder, twisting it.
Alice makes uncomfortable sounds, struggling as I twist her wrist and grin that sick grin I have no intention of showing.
I laugh and she yelps loudly.
How wonderful.
"So... Gerard's dead and that means you suddenly care about me again?" I glare at her.
She gives me a hurt look and a guilty expression once again washes over her face.
"Frank I, Gerard was... He is..." She stammers and I roll my eyes.
"Gone, dead, so far from you" I bitterly reply.
Alice looks out at the road and offers her open arms.
I laugh and back away from her.
"I HATE you, I thought the feeling was mutual..." I smugly remind her.
She looks down and nods.
"You need a friend right now Frank... So do I" She sweetly replies.
I look down and glare at her feet.
"No Alice, it's too late for me, don't bother" I say in another bitter tone "you know the crazy thing? It's that I thought you even cared in the first place. If I weren't 'Frank Iero' of 'My Chemical Romance' you'd write me off for just another nut case" I angrily say to her.
She protests and tears fall to her chin.
"I like you for you Frank, I don't care about the band" she smiles.
I give her an offended look.
"Oh so now you don't like my band?" I ask her playfully.
"What? Nope, hate it" she replies.
I smile slightly and back away from her.
"So, no father huh? I mean if he knocked you up" I ask.
Alice tenses up and and digs her nails into her hair.
"Oh no... Frank, Gerard and I didn't have sex in the room above you" Alice tries to convince me.
I know what I heard.
"Oh okay, so you think I'm stupid, that's fine Alice because I think you're a whore!" I insult her.
She cries.
"No I didn't do anything with him..." She trails off and I smile "There..." my smile cracks and I feel a hole in my chest.
"You... Last night?" I try to make sense of it but I can't.
This makes no fucking sense.
"So you forgot about me completely then" I realize.
Alice looks away from me.
I rest my hand on her cheek and slowly pull her face back to me.
"Just tell me it meant nothing" I whisper as I grab both of her cheeks and rest my forehead on hers.
"I- I can't do that Frank, it meant everything to me" she cries.
I slap her.
"No! No it didn't!" I argue "you were mine! Not his... Mine" I feel my eyes water.
"I'm none of your property, Frank it never would've worked" she wipes my tears and I tear away.
"You would've killed me the next day" she shakes her head and looks at the ground.
"I raped Jemma..." I whisper.
Alice backs away.
"What? No..." She tries to ignore me.
"I said I raped Jemma! I raped her while her husband and son were away from home, her son came in with a picture for fuck sake!" I cry.
It's tearing me apart.
Alice cries and shakily covers her eyes.
She tries to back away from me and I get a grip on her shoulders.
"Don't you walk away from me!" I twitch insanely.
Alice stares at me with wide eyes.
"Don't you dare walk away from me" I repeat.
"Frank why?" She asks.
I shake her shoulders.
"God don't you get it?! I'm not normal, I never will be... I'm a freak, I don't control most of the things I do" I cry again and twitch.
"Please Frank, You aren't a freak, it isn't your fault!" She yells at me with tears pouring from her eyes.
"I raped a girl while you fucked Gerard!" I shout at her.
She clears her throat and throws my hands off of her shoulders.
"We were in love" she replies.
It makes me furious.
"Don't leave me" I warn her.
She backs away and trips back off the sidewalk.
I run up and push her on the road.
She is immediatly hit by a large black van. She rolls over the hood and bumps her head on the road. I jump back.
I did that! Oh God! I am a murderer.
The driver jumps out and calls on his phone.
I run the opposite direction.
I hear running behind me and run faster.
I look back at the people running.
Police! They saw me commit a murder.
I kneel to the ground and uncontrollably start laughing.
When I look around there's nobody there.
Did I... Imagine them?
I couldn't have...
I can't take this anymore.
I start running to the police station, holding my scratched arms.

I take a shortcut to get there within ten minutes.
I throw open the doors and run in.
I stand in the middle of the room, ready to confess.
"My name is Frank Iero" I start.
The police are now staring at me.
"I have a confession" I take a deep breath.
A tall police man with a huge gut walks over to me and leads me into a dim room.
He turns on a singular lamp and sits down.
"You don't need to intimidate me, I'm here to confess" I explain.
The man smirks.
"I know that" he says in a mocking tone.
I gulp loudly.
He looks at my tatoos.
"They're interesting" he smiles.
"Yeah thanks, I have to get it out so here goes, I've murdered two people almost in the same time spread and I've raped two girls, one was a statutory rape" I admit.
The officer laughs at me.
"You're joking... You! Ha ha" he laughs.
"I'm not joking officer" I say in a serious tone.
The lamp swings over my face so only half of it is showing.
The officer is getting sweaty.
"These!" I show him my arms, "These are what the victim did" I lie.
The officer isn't laughing anymore.
"I'm going to cut you a deal alright" he shifts in his seat and wipes his nose.
I nod and clasp my hands together on the desk.
"This town doesn't need anymore rape cases and I don't really wanna deal with your false accounts of murder so if you could leave, I have more important things to do" he scoughs and leans back in his chair.
I sit in the chair opposite side of his and glare at him.
"What kind of rape cases do you ignore every day?" I ask.
He smirks.
"Just those ones that I would commit if I didn't have to worry about getting into jail" he laughs and puts his hands on the back of his head.
"Like..." I motion for him to continue.
"Like those cases of some drunk hottie who wakes up in a stranger's bed or that slut who walks through an alley and gets pushed into the wall... So on" he smiles.
I wanna punch that smile right off his face.
"So what you're saying is... Any girl get's raped in your town at any given moment and you'll do pretty much nothing about it?" I ask in a shocked tone.
He shrugs.
"We usaully deal with the charges, yes but we don't really do anything when a rapist confesses" he replies.
I glare at him.
"That's more sick than rape itself" I spit.
He laughs.
"Quite a thing for a self claimed 'rapist' to say" he smirks at me.
I fold my arms and slide them off the metal table.
I get up to leave the room and open the door.
I walk faster and faster until I eventually start running.
The rain is really pouring now, there's even hail.
The entire street is misty with rain and I can't see anything outside of a three metre radius.
I grab the wall for safety and walk through a dark alley.
I get approached by some druggo, crawling around on the ground.
I roll my eyes and run faster.
I slam my back against the wall and slide down.
I don't want to go on anymore...