Shattered hearts (Severus Snape)

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Late night was a sleepless night. I was supposed to enjoy the rest of my evening thinking about how nice my classes could be today, but instead, my mind was filled with the memories of my daughter again and of when I felt my skin touched Severus's. Then a wave of disappointment crashed into me as the thought of how I couldn't protect her, and how my soulmate was not happy to meet me.

The memories and the feeling was killing me, my chest tightened when I walked into the great hall and noticed the only empty seat was next to Severus Snape, My soulmate.

Ever since I was a child, I always had to wear a corset that folded my wings in to hide them underneath my shirt.

I feared of being pushed away by everyone again. I bit the insides of my cheeks as I looked at my breakfast. My stomach growled slightly, begging me to eat but I couldn't bring myself too as I could not stop thinking of what happened three years ago.

I could still remember the words my husband would say to me before he hit me, he once tried to cut my wings off leaving dozens of scars on my back. They played like a broken record in my mind. I could still remember Severus's words he said to me last night, how I was the reason her lost her, they stung like an obsidean sword piercing my heart. My stomach churned at the thought and I pushed my plate, my appetite vanished as I swallowed the fact that he was in love with another women and nothing could bring my little girl back. My presence as his soulmate would only hurt him not heal him.

I was not going to let him ignore me and subconsciously hurt me. I knew I had had to talk to him, as fate has brought me to him and there must be a reason behind it.

The other professors including the head master could feel the tension building between Severus and I, but there was nothing they could do. They knew Severus too well and he was a hard headed man, he would never listen to them.

Minerva knew she had to do something, anything to see me smile again and happiness in Severus's life.

She let out a sigh, pinching the bridge of her nose when she saw Severus stand up and leave for his class, not even noticing me.

"Minerva, do you think I should talk to him."

Her frown turned into a smile when I talked to her, confusion was laced in my voice. She shrugged, but her eyes told everything.

"Perhaps you should"

She replied as I took a deep breath, wanting to talk to Severus during my free period. Minerva could only pray the best for me as she knew how stubborn the potion master could be and his toxic words were the most dangerous poison in his possession.

I enjoyed teaching at Hogwarts and I wanted to savor some moments here. But then it struck me, I had to talk to Severus, as he was a part of my life now, and he seemed to despise it.

I tried to ignore the pain in my chest as I taught my students that day. Forcing a smile on my face to make the learning more interesting and memorable for them and myself. I knew as a teacher, you should not bring your personal issues into your work and I would hate to scowl at my students for my own problems. Hence, with a big smile to greet them my classes went smoothly and for a while, the thought of my daughter left my mind.

After all my students left I walked to Severus's classroom, as much as I wanted to keep my head up, I couldn't. I tried to prepare myself so I would not be even more hurt than I already was.

I breathed in sharply and knocked on his door, chewing on my bottom lip I heard his voice telling me to come in. I walked into his empty room, noticing he was preparing for his next class with his back turned away from me and I started to wonder if it was the right decision for me to even be here.

"Severus"

He tensed as he heard my voice, and I gulped when he turned around, his face hardened when he realized I was in his classroom. It was not hard to know that I was the last person he wanted to see at the moment.

He cleared his throat, walking up to me with his hands behind his back. Perhaps he was trying to intimate me. But I really wanted to talk with him, hence nothing he did or said could change my mind and leave the room.

"It's professor snape to you.."

He corrected me, and I was tempted to roll my eyes at him but that would only make me seem immature. We needed to talk this out like two adults, and not running away from it.

"Professor Snape, we need to talk about yesterday"

"There is nothing to discuss professor kang..."

"Of course there is, I'm your soulmate"

He scoffed at my words, staring at me as I were insane.

"A naive young woman with her silly dreams. Do you realize how pathetic you are...?"

He said, smirking as my face dropped. He knew he had gotten under my skin. I shook my head in slight disbelief, as he could make fun of such things. My life was already messed up enough and I wasn't sure how worse it could get.

"You're my soulmate whether you like it or not. Your can not change that"

"When are you going to realize that I don't care?"

A mocking smile sat on his face as he turned his back to me, walking back to his desk. I wasn't sure why my heart ached as I nodded weakly, realizing that Severus did not care about our sould being bonded together and he did not seem to care about his students either. He wasn't even going to try and hide it.

I knew there was no point in trying to talk to him and I could only let out a wistful sigh when he did not say anything to me. I heard the commotion outside assuming it was his next class.

"I'll leave you to your class then professor"

I wanted to let my anger out on him, but I knew that wouldn't change anything, and if he needed his time, then I would give it to him. I wanted to know the reason behind his hatred twords me, but it seemed like It was tough to get out of him especially the way he was behaving.

Grabbing onto the door handle, I glanced at him for a second, waiting for him to finally come to his senses to talk about the matter properly instead of trying to burn them into ashes.

"If you ever grow a pair to talk about it, you can come and find me professor."

It humored me with how quick he turned to look at me when my words finally gotten into his ears, but before he could say anything else I had already left his class and his students flooded in, ready to start the lesson.

Severus gritted his teeth at my remark, and his poor students were not aware that they were going to face professor Snape's wrath today since his mind was clouded with the thoughts of me and my words.

He surly had many negative things on his mind for the remainder of the Day.